Everyday is a sunny day!

this is going to be the last entry im going to type... after this, i'll be disappearing for
around a mth... the next time im going to blog is most prob when my bday come liao...
im taking a rest... or shd i say a break... a break hoping tt there's some changes in me
that you might be able to see... hopefully it'll be a better change... but i dont know it
too... sometimes things juz wun go the way as you had planned...
so this 1 will be 1 damn long entry....

looks like everyone blogged abot the camp itself... well... im going to do the same i
guess... but not abot the camp, more about me...

1st day of camp... i was already sick, i tot i can make it... but i didnt... now i not only
got flu... but cough too... i duno why... but maybe as wat they think that i am... im
weak...

training i try chionging all the way liao... my mucus juz keeps coming and coming and those
stupid sickness is making me so restless... the cold wind is oso blowing if i dun remmeber
wrongly den eugene(junior) say he cant hot to train... erm... b4 training we went jogging
around SP? think rovers and dragon boat did tt all the time... i slowly jogged 1st... dun
feel like running ah... so i behind until 1 pt i think jul abit fed up so i ran straight to
the front and yeah!... i got stitch... den cant run liao... so all the way i jog with stitch
in my stomach... and so shun bian i pao wei liao... wanling was the last psn... yanru
halfway ran off le... wanling oso got stich all the way... pei fu... hong another 1 oso...
his leg pain... think the only psn eating snake is jul?

later tt nite... i think too much again... coz during the day ive been paying quite alot of
attention to her... this her is not jul... she's *******... those wushu ppl reading my
blog... i think u're clever enuff not to say this out and i trusted u all so i say it out
here... pls dun let ******* noe abot tis, if not another jul and me situation might juz come
out again...

wat did i think too much abot... as usual... i shdnt pay so much attention on her... if not
tt terrible thing will happen again... nobody loves me... etc etc... usual...
~thinking too much is my forte...-_-"~

the first nite we slept late if i dun remember wrongly... k... recalled liao... tt nite... i
started the watching video thing when we having supper... i was excited as i can watch those
videos sam brought for me and shw oso wana watch my friends show... oso wana show the rest
my videos and my projects too... jul and gary had games planned out... i didnt knew...
so i was like eating into their gaming time... weibin or jul i forgot abit buay song ba...
den i was like wana pause den dun wana pause like tt... argh... duno... but i noe im wrong
here... anyway... they had the game... after tt i resumed the video watching again... the
next day we needa wake early for mrning jog... weibin was there keep telling us to sleep
early but den i was like keep playing video... haix... can see he unhappy... but they were
watching royston tan's show... i wana stop but they wana watch. think here is still my
fault... haix...

2nd day we went running by the poly 50 route... k... i got stich juz after i took my 5th
step for joggin...-_-" great... den help yongxiong carry tt pouch... even worse... arghz...
after few laps of running... den ya tui... my right leg hurt so cant do den gang hao i saw
wanling cant put her leg up on yvonne's leg... so i go over but pushed away by yvonne...
diaoz... so i do ya my own tui loh... but who knows how i felt tt moment?... or even b4?...
we went back to the room... i packed and went off for the medical check up... i dun have
enuff sleep... i tot i can get some over there... but im wrong... i got even more tired...
the experience there was sianz... nothing to do... u noe nobody there... u cant sleep u cant
talk and u gotta stay there for 6hrs in the god damn cold place where there's 1hr u're half
naked in a room with temperature around 17 degrees....-_-: and so... finally after 6 hrs of
mental torture... i came back SP... heard tt they going to train for another 1.5hrs so i
went up change liao den go training... xiong very xiong... keep coughing and sneezing all
the way... think those around me hear liao oso got irritated...

blah blah... i duno wat happened in the middle... nite we went clementi eat... i ate chicken
rice den 2 bowls of dessert... best meal that i ate for the camp... other days i ate as if
im having diet... den after the dessert... it came... fever... my bones starts to ache...(i
noe i got fever when my bones ache)... painful... tearing liao but cant let them noe... go
ntuc buy cough syrup... den we took bus back... i sat down and almost cant stand up sia...
aching like duno wat... muscle pain i can take it... but bone aching simply makes me...
arghz... torture...

we went back to the room... gary's leg was injured... he sprained his leg... everyone got so
worried abot him... so me, hong and eugene took him to A&E... when i wana bring gary to
hos... jul say, find someone bigger size so can carry him lah!... wat can i say? i diam diam
only... anyway... i still went in the end... i ran to gate 1 to get the taxi and back again
to get gary...

when we reach there... the nurse got him a wheel chair and i got very irritated... he was
feeling so much pain at 1st den the moment he on the wheel chair he starts playing... i was
worrying and the rest too... but suddenly he can play like duno wat... waste of our energy
worrying for u... i felt cheated... it's the duno how many time he broke my belief...
there waiting for 3hrs plus... coughing and mucusing non-stop, coz i nvr ate the medicine i
bought den go get the taxi liao... if tt's how gary is like... den let him be... i duno how
long will i put in effort in the friendship laio... sitting there for 3 hrs... i chatted wif
eugene... sort of alone... he's a very gd guy... but too bad he's introverted a little...
his mum oso too strict laio and he got some bad experience... very devoted psn he is. we
chatted alot... and i understand him alot too... but he wun be able to understand me alot...
coz there's so much things i wana say but i could not...

back in camp... they were waiting for gary... and i went complaining abot gary having fun
liao... maybe the rest take it as a relief, coz he's ok already... but for me, it's a
breaking of my belief for a friend... eugene stayed on wif me and slept after our noodle...
i went sleeping at the corridor... indoor is too cold liao... ystrday they say too hot so
they make it cold tonite...

alone outside with the grasshoppers and frogs with me... wat can i do? none but to shut my
eyes and sleep... thoughts den come again... think too much...im still thinking too much in
the camp... distraction sia... like her but cant say... haix... its going to be like tis for
sometime i guess...

mrning... 6am i woke up... too cold... outside the wind blow at me hard... im juz wearing
shorts and a windbreaker juz enuff to cover my body... but i juz shut my eyes... i noe
everyone who walked passed me... jul: put colgate all over him...i heard tt... surprised i
slept outside? im not... coz i already told weibin tt i'll be sleeping outside since day1...
after a nite outside... happy... i got even more sick-_-" blocked nose, cough, fever... i
told weibin tt i might not be able to train... he got the "dun try to eat snake" tt kind of
look to me... and said ni zhi zi kan loh... haix... anyway i tried training... until after
finish kong tui den i stop liao... coz the aching of bones really makes me weak...
i was sitting there... looking at them doing stretching... jiao was there... helped her get
rubber band den came back... den a while later tearing again... the wind blow 1 time my
aching will be more pain 1 time... so tear loh... wana go up sleep but dun even dare to move
abit sia... but who believe?...

slowly slowly the time passed... den they went up to take wallet for lunch while me and jiao
go buy herbal tea... ate tofu for lunch today... after tt is nap... i let them sleep while i
try to fix the weapon rack... den when they wake up, i go sleep... half way i asked gary is
he going down to see the training?... i called for him 6 times and the 7th time den he hear
me... he replied me yes and i told him i called him alot of times... he reply even more
loud tt i was so soft how to hear!... am i soft?... when i was loud everyone wans me to be
soft..... winner liao loh... anyway i dun think im soft when i called him... maybe i was
lying down and hearing my own voice... so i tot is loud...

den b4 they leave... i asked weibin for the keys... again... i have to repeat 3 times... the
3rd time i gotta get up and talk to him... he juz like gary hen bu nai fan de reply me...
say i was talking towards the pillow how can he listen?... i nvr face the pillow loh... i
took the key and covered myself again... seriously loh... hurt loh... i already got 1 jul
keeps giving me alot of wounds liao den suddenly u 2 treated me like tis... i sick i oso
tried to make u all happy loh!... i go training support u, i bring u to hospital w/o my med,
i worried for you, i listened to wat u need... maybe tt's wat everyone will do... so take it
for granted?... dun take me for granted k... coz there's only 0.5 yr and lesser u're going
to see me...

everyone left... my brain starts wrking again... slept till 5, in btwn i think i woke up 3
times... some dreams woke me... i forgot wat... but i remember 1 is pretty sad, coz i cried.
went down to see them training... guided some of them with their quan... ba ji i think...
jiao came too... passed me her fever medicine... den they started skipping... i got 70...
satisfied...

cant remember wat happened next... erm... think we go rest awhile liao den go bathe?
laiheng's bday today... they planned to make fun of him... failure at 1st but success in the
end... we floured him in the toilet... den the guys talked so loudly and laughed in the
toilet... i joined them... felt so happy... my fever gone wif my high spirit... went back to
room... did we watch show again?... no... i nvr eat the cake... they ate the cake laio den
all slack... i ate my cup noodle finish laio den sleep ba... blur... am i talking abot the
3rd nite now? oh yah... yes... im talking abot the 3rd nite... i ate salad as my dinner...
-_-" the staff centre was very cold... my hand freezed already den i was like trying to
freeze huifang... den wanling say juz admit tt you're weak... yupz... it juz freezed my
heart... yah... im juz weak...

actually all along i am weak... im juz acting strong... BSAS(buay stong act strong) she's
the 2nd gal who said this to me... 1st is jul... haix... nobody believe tt im stong... even
i dun myself... so wat even if im the fastest in the team? i jumps the best in the team? no
one recognise it... my weakness was my nature... and i'll always be hiding behind the fake
front... i acted strong coz i dun wana be bullied again... jian guo gui pa hei... come to
think of it... i got Pes A for ns... i dun wana be in commando nor guards... i noe i'll be
pulling everyone down bcoz of my weakness...

i nvr sleep after my noodle... we watched movie... jul and laken was lying beside me
huggin... i turned my back facing them of coz... if not i think too much again... but the
show make me think even more... karma... haix... think my last life was a gd psn... tt's why
i can have more gd stuffs den others have liao... shd i wrk for my next life already?...
maybe not now...

i had enuff of being a mr nice guy liao... rang wo dang yi xia huai ren ba... yin wei hao
ren nan dang...

last mrning... wat did i do?... think i juz woke up brush my teeth, eat breakfast... den
blur blur... forgot they run finish liao...-_- i went training wif them today coz felt
better after jiao's med... but yuan lai is the training tt causes me the fever... halfway
already bones aching liao... last day die oso muz chiong as bin said... oso ya tui to my
fullest... 1 day nvr train... muscle oso less ached liao... played capt ball... keeps going
out of court to find my tissues and cough... den ended liao... go keep the chair wif
laiheng... he asled whether im fine... i think i haven wake up... i told him tt if i die the
rest will clap... den he asked why... i cant answer him... haha... blur... think tt's the
basic of the club's reaction rite? if someone say i going to die laio den got ppl will
clap?... nvm if im wrong...

up to this point... i think i lied abit when i took the psycho test when i do medical
checkup... :p hopefully i wun go killing ppl when i go ns...

when is the day we eat at FC 5? nvm... zhong dian is not here... zhong dian is when we walk
back to the room... px told me tt really pissed me off... alot of ppl not happy wif the way
i talk this i understand... den say i not polite?... next time i ask for things try to add
please.... duh? i not polite? i dun have a please coz i got thank you ok!... everything i
asked for has a thank you loh! and i i have a "can you" in front too... i can say i talk
like ah beng but u say i not polite den i duno wat to say laio... maybe i shd take away my
thx next time laio... wat for?... i nvr say pls when i ask for things but i dun think i'll
eva forget thx... den she say try lah try lah... wat the... i got more irritated inside
me... try? ive been trying the whole yr b4 u came in and wat i got was a even worse
situation loh! i think tt time i dun change anythign was even better den wat i am now...
hey... i cant make everyone happy, i cant make everyone like me 1 loh!...if u hate me, den
fine, go ahead and hate me lah... it only hurts ur mind not mine... i really got very sick
of this 1.5 yrs in poly laio den keep on adding sickening things on me... those who see me
as gd, continue to see me as gd and look at only my gd... those who see me as bad den
continue to see me bad and look at only my bad points...

i will only change myself after my poly life... or if the right psn appeared... the psn who
understands wat i need will change me... wat i need is actually wat i keep giving out and
who has eva realised tt? as i said... dun take me for granted, coz i wun take u for
granted... there are no friends forever... we can only be friends as long as we can be... i
cherish all the moments wif all of u ppl... no matter sad or happy... but how many treated
me as their friends when i treated them as 1?

ive already condemned the 2nd half of my poly life already... so stop trying to make me
change ok?... i will if i wan... coz i noe im not the usual self... the usual me is not like
tt... the tzeweng u seeing now is a fake 1 ok... dun believe? den dun believe...
sianz... i missed the past me... wonder when will i meet him again....

anyway... after training went mac... den i cant tahan laio go home 1st... they said bye but
i hardly answered them... juz wana leave... coz all the above thoughts was gathered during
den...

this camp lets me see alot of things... i saw gd , the bad, the leader, the strong 1s, how
they treated each other, how they feel, and saw 1 thing tt wakes me up... SPWLDC'02 does not
exist anymore and will not exist again... (thought of this on train... really sad... so
teared again... haix... i too long nvr cry laio... so much water to come out...)
this camp... i think ive made a mess out of it... actually i think it sucked... for me of
coz... not for the rest i guess... the club is in a super mess rite now... sure ppl will say
call everyone come back help loh... it's always said easier den done... how much effort and
pain it needs to get it done? how much hardwrk is needed to maintain by a psn w/o the help
of the rest? tt's why i like to wrk alone more... coz there'll only be me to talk to and no
others, den u wun get any quarrels... u noe wat u want...

nite... weibin sent an sms... about jiayou... i think he sent to everyone... if he only sent
it to me... i'll be very very touched... but i dun think he did tt... he's fair... tt's why.
rested a day... woke up very late... my fever gone liao... but not the cough and flu... went
to westmall coz my dad was there looking at hp... he called me to go...
we discussed how to get the hp, upgrade mine or sis's and who get the hp... coz the family
got me, sis and my dad wana upgrade hp... only 1 will get it... my sis have to continue her
plan too (she overspent for the past few mths)... in the end i got k700, my dad likes it so
i took it, i actually give up the upgrade and give it to him but he insist tt he give it to
me... so to pls all... i took the model he likes...

$368... the moment my mum knew... she nagged... at dad... i got very angered and said tt im
going to pay for everything... (at 1st i paying only $100) den she say it's not abot who's
paying it's about $368 is EX!... when she cool down liao den i explain to her again... i noe
she very buay song... but wat can i do?... arghz...

everytime like tt... when there's no prob.... there's no prob... when 1 come... all come
together... tell ya wat... my mental now i very very very unstable... so any small small
wrds you mentioned can trigger off the button to set off nuclear bomb(S)...

here blogging... den a handful, literally 1 hand can count... came to ask whether im ok
anot... wo kai shi huai yi wo de ren ge... (actually oso no need to huai yi... confirm got
wrong...) jennifer... im most surprised... she sent me a get well e card... i hardly noe her
loh.... my sec sch buddy msged me... haijiao oso smsed me... oso surprised... coz usually
she wun do this... thx for those who cared... but i wun be able to recover anytime soon...
too unhealthy up in the brain...

den got meeting min frm gary... biangz... (bg: im in m'sia during the meeting) biangz... they mentioned stuffs tt i dun wana mention 1st coz i needa noe it myself and explain it myself... frm the min... i think already got ppl misunderstand me liao... sianz...

If there are any misunderstandings, they should be clear in a nicer tone and friendlier body language.... if can clear up wun it be 9mths ago?... so many ??????? den i needa noe... haix...
can see tt there wun be peace in me again... wonder tonite i can sleep anot... tml mrning still have to wake early to see doc...

kk... ive typed very very long liao... u can read till siao oso dun understand wat i
toking... but anyway, u oso wun see me here for at least a mth...

wanling juz now wana compete wif me see who learn language faster... she learn chinese i
learn eng... i told her... we cant compare the result since i wun be coming for most
training next yr since im going ITP...

haix... how many ppl wanted me to go back training? i wanted leslie to come back training in
the past... nono.... actually i wanted all of them.. paiseh, except shirong... cant imagine
how im going to spend my bday this yr... bday still got wrk... haix... i think it's jzu like
wat ive experienced b4... everything is going back to square 1... im losing alot of things
liao... maybe im going to end up wif nothing again...

once again... i am wat i am now... but i am not not always going to be like now...
coz it's not the real me... im no longer the gentleman, im no longer the weng tt writes meaningful poems, im not the one that is matured, im not the one tt will have fun, im not the 1 that will give as much as b4, im not the zhuan yi psn anymore, im not the 1 that i treat friends i used to treat, im juz not myself... i'll find the real tzeweng sometime, somehow... maybe den, u'll recognise him, maybe den, u'll say... tt's the tzeweng i used to noe... or... is tt tzeweng tt used to be?

~any last wrds for me?~

...it's autumn time, 1:56 AM

Juz to say where I was this whole week... I was in Malaysia, near penang, in sri rambai aka Nan(2) Mei(3) Yuan(2) :p

1st day reached only probs occurred... duno how to call to m'sia...-_-" coz dad now dun have auto roaming liao... den bloody singtel nvr send the correct way of calling to u... Last time got send 1... anyway forget it... we solved the prob somehow...
then my popo and jiu mu etc etc all say I got thinner liao... WAH!!!!... thinner??? Biangz... im trying to get taller and fatter leh…-_-" they say my cheek bones can see... so thinner... sianz... hopefully go medical checkup tt time I still in 95% healthy sia... and oso my weight dun go lower den 47kg... and my height not lower den 160 plsssssssssssssss...

Anyway... fun holiday ba... coz really relax...:p haha no worries, no wrk, no nothing... juz tt sometimes sian until can play chess wif myself... den can play wif BABIES! Hahhaah... sooooo cute:p hahaha got chance den upload the photos... den I can keep on bao baby :p hahaha but they really shan bian... one time they let u carry, den the next moment dun wan liao:p bleah:p
And yah... I ALMOST GOT MYSELF A EAR HOLE!... heng nvr psychoed to do so:p hahahah... duno why... eva since I dyed my hair in m’sia... they kept psychoing me to do such stuffs 1... tattoo... pub... ear holes:p diaoz... actually I felt like getting too... but too bad... I still think I wun look nice... summore got SOMEBODY will den start to yak and I will be very pissed... so better dun get any:p

The weather was... so sucky... L hot all day long… but rain oso rain until very heavy 1... den now my whole face is full of pimples liao... sobz sobz...

Got myself 2 shirts, 1 shorts, 2 software... tt’s it I think... haix... so little stuffs... I saw 1 very nice beach pants... but cant get it... coz parent was quarreling...-_-" see... juz reach home not long only start to quarrel again... why? Coz muz take our clothes to wash....-_-" coz toilet dirty... lamed...

Lastly to say when we came back... my mum was caught for bringing chewing gum...-_-: the gum was supposed to be in my bag... but she say put in her’s coz very strict now... and yah... she got it loh...-_-“ anyway nothing happens... juz got her IC down... den officer even taught her next time dun bring 1 box... bring put in pocket den can liao...-_-: diaoz... yah yah... im not getting anymore gums for frenz next time liao... no more... getting it for myself only:p not enuff to distribute:p

Tml camp... go pack now...

...it's autumn time, 1:25 PM

went out bought bday gift for yedan den meet kimyong at 1... den later go sch meeting...
the moment i reached... i saw her... jul... is she in the comm? haix... sianz... sianz not becoz she in the comm... is i noe during meeting she'll start her childish behaviour again that really makes me angry...
and for always... im rite, she did it...

for every wrd i say, for every movement i do for every nothing ive done, she could do something abot it... jul.... though u're talking to haijiao only... but ur voice is so loud tt if i couldnt hear den i muz be deaf...
for a few moments... she start her act... i looked at her... she was "shocked" and shut up... it's not gd... coz i looked at her more den the numbers i could count.... when weibin said tt im going to m'sia tml... she clapped... wat's wrong wif her? or shd i say wat's wrong wif me? i dun think im wrong in anyway...

wasn't in condition, we wen for training... captain ball again... she was the goalie... and i juz snatch the ball away frm her... why? coz it's her, tt's why... duno wat game im playing when she's there... i could only stop... let her take the ball pass to someone else liao den chase the ball again...-_-: nvm... xu guan jiu hao... but i duno how much longer i can take it...

playing game, she nvr did stop her stupid behaviour... my name got tze... doesnt mean im a chicken... im more girlish i admit, but im not a gay! .... calling names like tt is it fun? maybe others might be... but not frm u! the rest... dun eva call me chicken or gay... i'll turn nasty and i swear i'll!...

ji ben gong... today quite xiong... but i didnt get any kick... im venting my anger i think... den hurt my leg... la dao... nvr do enuff stretching... and yah... she was there yakking again... she 10yrs nvr talk liao so today muz open her mouth until she song?... doing cudgel... hit myself twice and now it's swollen... orh ceh liao... thx jiao for ur concern... others too... but jiao's concern is much more meaningful if u understand... think i was too distracted today liao... keep hurting myself...-_-'

den coach keeps pulling me out to do demo... of coz jul make noise... but 1 thing i got more angered was wif gary... i finished my demo... weibin started to clap... i think not sure... but zhong dian is... gary shouted... "OH... Chu Mia Lo..." (famous liao loh...) sarca... duno wat to say abot him... he changed for the better... but in myself... i still think he's still the same old gary....

juz as i thought everything came to an end after training... gary makes me flared again...
he claimed to be an animal lover... he got himself a hamster, but his mum dun allow him to have... so he put it at my place... he said "help me take care..." so i took care for him... since it's partly my responsible since i lend him the $$ to buy. tml im going m'sia liao... i told him to come my house today after training to bring the hamsters to my friend's house... he hao(2) shuang(3) de answer me "OK!".... and wat he told me after training? he said he's really hungry and he asked me if i can go by myself... -_-" i was so pissed that i juz said ok... it wasnt the 1st time he said that he'll do something and in the end nvr do it... it wasnt the 1st time... and you claimed to be an animal lover when can even forgo your hunger for awhile for the sake of your hamster's life?.... he doesnt even look a single bit of worried...

gary gary... i tot i could find more you dian frm you but i got more and more que dian now... coz im a guy so u treated guys differently? maybe... coz i think i did the same thing too... haix... does tt means i oso got so much que dian?

dedicated to someone u'll try guessing

Her fragrance her, mesmerized me
Wish to stroke her
Her sweet looks, caught my eyes
Wish to touch her
She lie on me, I felt comfort
Wish to have her by my side

To all those I wished for, a wall hindered
I must keep my distance from her
Control my heart, prevent the tragic
I dont wish that terrible thing to happen again

Should I follow the path of my heart?
Or should I go by the trail of my mind?
Either way, I hope that I would not regret the choice I made
For a sweet loving girl she is...

~tzeweng

...it's autumn time, 8:29 AM

tml i going to m'sia liao... but now still haven pack my bag... OH GOD... no time sia...

wake up only to find out tt i kena red eyes... arghz... very itchy... but cant rub my eyes...:( later going out to buy yedan's bday gift... den meet kimyong at kallang at 1... den go club for the camp meeting... den training... den gotta rush home to pass my hamster to my friendto help me take care... den after tt i gotta pack 2 weeks of clothes!!!! 1 weeek for m'sia, another 4 days for camp... ah!.....

AH!!!! HAO YI's show COMING SOON!!! hahhhah.... why i so excited? it's not becoz im on the show... BUT SHE's ON THE SHOW! hahhaha i even saw her on advertisement:p hahahah! so prominenet summore... 1 look u'll noe it's her...:p ahahhhaha... so excited sia... but oso SO LAO KUI SIA!!!! she got 2nd and i got laokui.... hopefully the video editor know how to edit:p den make me look better.... ahHHHhhahh... praying hard sia.... shinsian looks so cool on show... why always i look so ugly on show 1....:(

ren mei guo ran bu yi yang:p

...it's autumn time, 8:43 AM

8am wake up on saturday... WHY? hahaha... coz gotta go tampines watch mrning movie... 1st time watching mrning show sia... suay thing ystrday i slept at 5am:p ahhaha was playing this game... check it out www.mapleglobal.com ... the game quite ok lah:)

anyway... so we reached there... but den no gd show to watch... waited for leslie till around 11 i guess... den we go see timeslot again... sam cant watch horror so we watching ladder49 at 150 session.

den we walk walk den makan... keep talking about NS stuffs... haha sam muz be quite bored den:p hahaha... got alot of stories in NS... very funny... laugh till i peng...

Ladder 49... very touched by the story... very nice show... though it's not tt kind of award winning show... but i think it's still worth my $8.50...:p very touching story... oso quite depicting the emotions of the fire fighter... not only tt... now den i noe actually fire deparment got so many diff post 1:p hahaha

yupz... after tt went wif parents and sis go funan... sis wanted to buy some camera wif mp3 player and video cam function etc tt cost $349 i think... anyway... i dun like it... so i juz kept my mouth shut... but she keeps coming to me say... how? can anot?... i juz say... u pay 1 den u decide loh... but anyway... told my dad can lah... for her standard and her aim... (her purpose not like mine:p haha if me i sure get something tt's more pro:p haha she juz wana have fun lah)... and she's paying... maybe it's gd... since it's the 1st time she's paying to get her stuff... she'll protect it well ba...

den saw MP3 player... feel like getting it... den not... duno leh... hahaha i wana upgrade my hp 1st...:p coz it's so damn faulty now... need more den 5 mins to type my whole sms out...-_-" coz the keypad is faulty phone oso... sometimes cant answer call 1...-_-:

MP3 roughly how much? any1 can help me find out? i saw 128mb creative 1 selling at $140+ @ funan... any1 care to intro?:p

...it's autumn time, 1:48 PM

Today is the happiest entry i make for the past few entries i guess

hehehe... today my wife(play play 1 lah:p) dated me... those who duno who's my wife, she's rane... if u duno who... den tt's bad:p

the day b4... weijie came my house use com... so he was there using my com... and im in my mum's kitchen baking cookies:p hehehe... do until 3am sia... since i started at around 1... den after went fixing my com stuffs den slept at 5...

hahha... She wana learn animation... so go sch loh... meeting at 10am... only reaching the sch to noe tt... THE SCH REFORMATTING T2055 and 35-_-"

haix... so went to dl maple story in sch while waited for her loh...(coz she dun have $$ to top up her ez link card... so waiting for her daddy to come home) haha but anyway i went to her house instead since i finished dling...

so... she do finish her rover stuff... den her dad juz came back while she's bathing... her dad was shocked to see me... coz he wasnt informed of my appearance... anyway... her father quite conservetive i guess... den suddenly see 1 guy in the house... hahhahha...

kk... so went to my house teach her instead... now den she noe animation isnt ez... hahaha.... so taught her a few stuffs abot 3dmax... den watch some animations... den see through my baby photos... haha... den we chatted...

i gave her the cookie i baked... den she xiang da ren liao:P hahha coz she say shou bu lioa:P hahhaa... anyway she gave me comments tt i felt veyr touched... usually ppl make gifts by themselves, the thought is there, but there isnt standard... those who bought gift wif standard, dun have the thought... and the gifts tt i made... have both and she was touched... haha... so happy to hear tt... those who received gifts frm me b4.... hoped that you're touched by me too... coz you're always a special 1 in me and really get something special where others dun have....

but ideas do run out... time isnt enuff... money is a thought... sometimes i still have to buy gifts only for friends... but they are with my thoughts inside ok?:) cheerz

den I nvr knew tt she's so STRONG!... she look so weak but not sia... im almost killed by her:P hahha violent oso:p haha juz like me:p haix... such a gal look so gentle but so strong.... haha her future hubby criteria 1 of them is muz be stronger den her... haha u can see why:p
yeah... so we chatted alot loh... think it's the 1st time we chatted so long after we're "married"...
-_-: played abit... den after went to eat wif her in sch...

suay suay this time kimyong they all came... and he saw me... he asked who is her...-_- friend loh:p dun think too much:p haha... so we chatted again... :p hahha until 615... no choice... have to go for training... so she went off to meet her rovers friends... and tt's the end of our date:p haha... will "date" her more if got time next time:p hahaha... anyone wana date me? feel free:) hehheheh im single and availble...:p hahahhahha...:) no joke... im really single and really very available:p

now to wushu... think today improve le... hahha FINALLY!... but no cheng jiu gan... den only cheng jiu gan today is wif my ya tui... WAH!!!!.... SO HiGhhhhhh.....haha even haijiao is impressed wif me:p haha im oso so impressed wif myself... but all have to thank to kimyong... wah.... his method very gd... but oso causes much pain in my leg sia...

the ti tui got improve lah... but not gd enuff... still very tired... after break laio den like nothing to do... and den drag all the way to 11 den we went clementi eat supper... nothing much... Leslie and elvin came back today... very happy... haha... den hear alot of story frm leslie... he really look like a big brother to me sia... hahaha... hopefully tml can go out wif them....:) den eventually we took taxi home... thx uncle... for letting the 5 of us on cab:)

...it's autumn time, 2:11 AM

Confidence.... is the way you walk... you look to the front... not the ground...

I shd build up my confidence 1st, by not looking at the ground...

Trust.... is the amount you give, for the person you treat as friend...

He didnt realise it... he broke my believe...

I shdn't give so much trust juz as i shdn't give so much love...

Even though hurt is juz part of life... but i dun wana get it anymore...

Be it hurt, be it lost of faith...

i still wana hold on to wat i think is best for me... i still wana hold on to wat i believe in...

Friends... Love... Trust... Miracles... Fate... Destiny... etc etc...

i duno wat im toking abot liao... can i still put trust and believe in the person i called as friend???...

...it's autumn time, 11:53 PM

after tt final day where we handed in all our assignments... i started to finish up the puzzle that i put on the floor for almost a yr?:p hahah was my bday present last yr u noe?:p hahaha... did halfway through but suddenly got very bz den nvr do liao... but guess wat:p haha i completed the rest liao:p ehehhee
anyway, can help me check out, 73 by 102cm cost how much? pls pls:p thx:p

going to hang it near my bed:p haha 2000 pcs... it's going to be magnificent in my small small room:p haha i wonder how many more stuffs i can hang in my room... think my purple wall is going to be covered up liaoo... sob sob... the purple wall is sooo nice... haix... (btw, purple wall is for her:p hehheheh:p) ya ppl noe who's the her rite? hahahha:p

...it's autumn time, 1:55 AM

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