Saturday, July 30, 2005
yoz... so tis is the 2nd time i bookout...nthing much to blog abot actually haha...
i think i really cant catch wif the outside world sia... i noe nuts abot news... i noe nuts abot life of my friends here... i cant spent time reading 20 over blogs over the week in juz a day... haix... sadded... how to catch up wif life den?... haha... sorry peeps if i nvr tag ur board, coz im so outdated... so i oso duno wat u toking abot sometimes:p
btw, any 1 noe how to cure corn?... i got a corn on my feet... not very pain, but very li siao leh... haha...
how has u guys and gals been? update me? ahaha:)
...it's autumn time, 2:13 AM
Friday, July 22, 2005
haha... yoz! 2nd entry... special announcementhaha... today, rane is no more my wife le! haha... coz she now become my sis liao... so officially im "single" liao... haha... lol...
k, so i got now 2 dear god sis, kai xuan and rane... haha... dun u guys out there eva try bullying them, coz there's an army personnel behind them hoh! lol
hm... so u all sick of my voice already rite? but too bad, song changed, but still got my voice, but nvm, there's a better singer:p she's no other den rouhui... haha... tis shd change abit of mood when u reading tis few entry?:p
side note... my mum think tt ive grown fatter le... coz my cheek not so boney liao... she oso say i taller...-_-" but i think other den weight, nthing of me changed:p haha... except my botakness and got more pimples on my face... sadded.... like going back to sec sch days sia... where pimples juz keeps popping out liek nobody business...
so, been wondering how i look after i go botak?... tis is how i look:p haha...
before
and after
...it's autumn time, 1:46 AM
Thursday, July 07, 2005
kk... im doing a super fast typing now... coz i dun have enuff time liao:p1st, a new song for ya b4 i going in...
2nd to taggers, haha... i will become stronger! haha, wait i come out den 6 pack liao:p lol
gary... biangz... i book out oso saturday... how to train:p
peixuan... jiayou ah! u can do it 1!
adidas gang and friends... hehehe... i come out become black and botak... prepare a cap for me hoh:p
wushu friends... jiayou! hope to see u all get better skills and stunt when i go for the next training hoh!
everything oso chop chop, alot of things to say, but not time:p haha... kk... today hm... i woke up at around 10 or 11... den meet weiting go SIM take come brochure for her course 1... saw the media comm degree... but it doesnt interest me... den we went to meet anna at suntec for KTV... sang alot, had alot of fun too... photos cant upload... coz no time!!! haha... den weiyang came to join us... "surprise" visit:p haha...
after tt is sizzler... as dinner... wushu there canceled le:p sadded... but anyway... sizzler was GD! superb! even better den surf and turf... summore it's half buffet... eat till really fuLLlLlL... den when come to paying... weiting suddenly pull weiyang away... i noe they up to someting... but yuan lai... they treated me for tis meal... arigto ne! xie xie ni men... and tt incl anna too:)
photos unavailable:p sorry:p haha... after tt we juz went to toa payoh meet up wif ryan and durng the trip to jurong... we really laughed and joke... so funny... tt weiyang oso... lol...
erm... too much to say, but juz to sum it all... IM NOT GOING to die lah:p hahha... so oso no need to say till like...-_-":p haha... so all in all... wait for me to come out ba:) see how much will i change:p hope for the better and not the worse... will miss ya ppl! BYEeEeEeEe
...it's autumn time, 11:53 PM
hm... oso nthing much to blog abot... today is my last day as a civilian... going k-ing later, wushu there canceled... haix... nthing much really:p haha...anybody got any last wrds for me?:p
...it's autumn time, 11:09 AM
Tuesday, July 05, 2005
lol... 4th entry of the day... so lame...i wana go for a makeover coz i suddenly feel like having some hardproof of my 19-20yrs old me... and oso... haha... in case u haven noticed... i dun have alot of 1-psn photo of myself... so maybe muz go get 1-psn photo faster at so called the teenage age...
haha... but parents dun support me leh:p lol... financially lah:p tt's why, but i oso cant support myself financially too... sadded... and there goes...
somehow, i got tis feeling that the best of me have yet to arrive... but at least... now is the 2nd best of me that i wana save up, put in my album... so when i grow old i can see myself as an active young teenage... and not something tt i can only say, but not show...
makeover... it's not for couple and family or gals only... guys oso can go makeover... tt's why those ming xing oso have makeovers rite?... juz to make u look nice... but for me hm... is for ji nian ba.... but 1 thing tt we cant dun admit... when we take such photos, we're more or less zi lian? hahha
i oso felt abit awk if i 1 psn go take... but no choice mah... no gf, family oso dun wana take... and tt's left wif me...
haha... so wat? so i'll plan ahead den:p 2 yrs later:p 2 yrs later i'll go for a makeover:p hahhaha... but provided i got nice hairstyle and skin tone... i dun wana take when im a black.... lol... next time ppl will ask me... eh? u go india serve army ah? hahhaha.... at least tanned den can go...
oh yah.... maybe taking photo now can oso compare my fairness now:p lol... im so darn fair for a guy man...
hopefully 2 yrs later... i got someone wif me taking those photos?...:p haha... xiang de mei...:p
...it's autumn time, 10:58 PM
喜欢，那是一种什么样的感觉？爱情，那又是一种什么样的感觉呢？
他们俩都让我觉得，是甜蜜的，是浪漫的。 是刻苦铭心的，是人生无法缺少的另一个元素。
可是近来，我看到的却是他们的另一面。残酷的一面。
他们，也是痛苦，伤心，难过，悲伤。。。一分不想在回忆的感觉。。。 你呢？
喜欢对我来说。。。 他已经慢慢变成一种恐怖。。。
自从在理工第二年开始。。。 这份恐怖就慢慢累积了吧。
很多人知道，第二年的我，并不快乐。爱情在我生活中消失。。。喜欢也是。
可是我又开始喜欢时，这种感觉，突然不同了。。。 他多了一些奇怪的感觉，一个非常戒备，非常害怕的感觉。。。 我怕了。。。 我怕我付出的越多，受的伤也越深。我也怕付出以后，或许我们连一份友谊也会失去。。。 所以喜欢。。。 会是恐怖吧。。。
我现在喜欢的她，好不容易成为朋友。所以，我不会乱来。我不想失去一份友谊，或者该说成，我不想失去她？相信你们也有这种感觉过吧？
凡事都无绝对，希望时机成熟事。。。 我还是付出的：）
单身是幸福的。。。但我相信，有个人在身旁，更为幸福。
...it's autumn time, 4:11 PM
juz a few more days to be botak:pnow packing my stuffs... abit sianz... suddenly feel tt... 2 yrs... seems very long, but i noe it'll pass me very fast... im planning wat i wana do during tis 2 yrs liao... but it seems impossible to be completed... coz i mon - fri inside the camp... wat to do? can bring laptop in? lol...
anyway... last week thot of going for a makeover tis week b4 all my hair drop... while my skin tone is still so fair... den when come out le can compare:p lol... but aiks... too bad... i duno any makeover studio in m'sia... s'pore too ex liao:p
hm... so? tt means either i do it myself (haha... zi lian kuang) or i wait after my NS den i go take loh:p
hm... wana say thx to all my friends... really... tis last 2 mths b4 i go in NS is really very fun and fulfilling... i nvr had lived my life so much b4:) the gan jue is very shi(2) zai(4) come to think of it... 19 tis yr, going to be 20 pretty soon... really muz be planning for future already?... so fast becoming adult, but how come i still feel soo kiddy and young? lol.. maybe tt's why young adult are given for us...
lol... i dun wana be like kimyong... haven reach 30 den every training say wo lao le wo lao le... haha... i think next time i might become like my dad... fan lao huan tong:p lol...
peeps! stay funky! cute! pretty! shuai! stylo! and wateva forever!~:)
anyway, can those who can eveeryone try taggin my shoutbox?... coz i cant tag on mine and others shoutbox... why????
** new song
...it's autumn time, 2:12 PM
okie... i try to make it short lah ah:phm... actually i can blog ystrday 1... but after i logged online... and went to get a nap... but tt nap lasted till tis mrning-_-" sorry to those who msged me and nvr reply:p
k... ystrday went to sentosa... wah... biangz... i missed tt place... lol... 1st time i felt tt:p haha... anyway it was quite fun, as in fun only:p haha... coz waiteng's friends too li hai liao... i dun have chance to touch the ball... haha... so stand there like vase only... den sadded... when ball came, i hit it to somewhere else... paiseh sia... i think i muz go some volley training liao:p
anyway i said i wana try my spiking today... but i cant even serve the ball to the other side of the court... wth... those balls i trained b4 wushu is for nthing liao:p haha... sadded:p
but anyway it's fun when we formed a circle and played... coz everyone touched the ball... and it lasted for quite long:) hm... time pass very fast, rouhui went... den fast enuff it was 3 plus and we went bathing. den rained!!! wah... shiok... i love raining:p haha... so different frm other ppl.. they like the sun, i like the rain:p haha... coz it's cooling mah:p den wif a jacket... even shiok... it'll be warmth:)
so we went suntec to shop around b4 going for dinner... dinner was superb! steak and salmon... haha... so long nvr eat steak le, it was so niceeeeeee... and salmon too... now den i noe weiyang dun eat alot of things 1... and he and qi really cant live w/o soya beans:p lol... everytime see them, they'll be wif their vitasoy or beans related sutffs... lol...
and so we went home after tt, i slept... almost missed my stop... heng i got wake up... nowadays ah... ppl very inconsiderate 1... they noe boonlay is the last stop... they saw u're sleeping... but they heck u... biangz... wake the psn up lah! very paiseh meh?-_-" i think the psn sleeping shd be more paiseh loh...
today, nthing to do... qi called me early in da mrning... den i saw my sis... diaoz... den i started wondering, is today sat or sun? coz i thot sun was ystrday... think today is youth day? so she nvr go sch...
after i get the stuff qi wans, i called her but she nvr reply... till now too... maybe tml she'll call me again ba... anyway i went wushu, wif a small injury back... hit my knee... lol... they say i wan defer is it? purposely 1:p lol...
anyway was quite happy today, coz they organising a "farewell" for me... thx man!... hopefully we got go lah... coz maybe little den it might be cancelled?
...it's autumn time, 1:25 AM
Saturday, July 02, 2005
lol... go see doc in da mrning... and basically im fine... so most prob my cough is a cold cough... so doc wun be giving me inhaler to treat me... she'll send the xray for a detail report...now i noe why ppl prefer family or private doc den to polyclinics... coz they're really better... at least tis clinic is... both doc took the time to really check u 1... not like polyclinic... ask u qns only den no need to do anything juz give u medicine and u go off...
anyway, i requested for a height and weight measurement... and guess wat??? im taller and heavier:p lol... 162cm and 49.6kg... gained 1.6kg... haha... so wat's my next aim? my next aim is 165cm:p haha... and dun grow shorter:p
which means my BMI is 18.89 which is healthy:p and my height and weight ratio is almost 100% healthy:p haha... so pls dun say im too thin:p haha im juz alright!:p haha
...it's autumn time, 11:33 AM
today i nvr go wrk... was in a extra gd mood today... duno why... maybe... nvm... i oso duno maybe wat... im juz in a very gd and happy mood...mrning, i overslept... mum called den i wake up... so i go do my stuffs a little 1st b4 i go for the xray...
it was quite fast... didnt wait for very and it's my turn... after the picture... they dun allow me to take the film back... coz they say it's not emergency... so i had to call my clinic den ask them to speak to the radiologist...
so finally they gave me the film... so tml can go see doc liao... hm... wonder how would it be...
after tt went out wif weiting... we go sim lim... she buy keyboard, i buy CDR... den both of us wana buy Zen micro... coz during chalet waiteng got us attracted to it... summore they say the price like drop liao... and so we searched high and low for it...
and we got sianz... haha... coz both of us thot it's around $290 - $300... den can cut the price?... lol... but in the end the prices were ranging from $320 to $380... abit off budget... so?... wait loh... maybe got another crazy sale frm creative again... but i oso cant buy liao... in NS...
so we cant do anything abot it... went to bugis and chatted at coffee bean, den juz shopped around b4 i left for wushu training...
hey weiting! all da best to ur new face thing and ur silkair! even though dreams and plans dun come true sometimes, but at least u tried?! yeah?! haha...:)
training... i was late, but i wasnt really in a hurry too... so i did took my time alittle... today training? duno... i was actually quite on a high mood... i taught some of the yr 1s... compete wif yi xi... trained on all my routines at 1 go, tried alot of stunts by myself... the other alumnis nvr come... i self entertained myself... till i oso abit sianz... but i think it's still ok ba.
after training... they gathered us... i saw candles... i thot it's for haijiao... and other bday babies... but im wrong... it's for me and weijie... haix... wushu got 1 tradition... those b4 going in NS muz eat "specially made" buns... actually the juniors shd have forgotten them le... who reminded them ah?... and so... i ate a chilli and duno wat filled bun... the taste?... nthing but chilli-_-"
quite demoralising when they sing bday songs... juniors, or shd i say yr 1s? they not enthu 1... i oso sian sian...
i gave haijiao her gift liao... personally i like the gift alot... hope she likes it too... den jul and laken i think, gave her a mp3 player... at 1st she reject the gift, coz she think tt it's ex... but i say dun accept give very no manner leh... (bribery diff case:p) but anyway... gifts... it's the thot tt count?... so it's their thot to give u tis gift... so matter u like it anot, accept it ba?... next time give them back the same value gift if u feel guilty:p ahaha...
den duno why... i felt abit sad... muz be becoz 2nd last training le... but not all alumnis is here... cant meet them, and the feeling of leaving abit sad... den they were leaving... go eat dinner... and so while walking towards to the bus stop, i remembered i needa top up... and so i went... when i came back, they were no where to be seen...
why?... coz they left w/o me... wth?! nvm... i thot maybe they juz nvr noticed... so i juz got on another bus... i thot... maybe they might call me later... i reached... i went to the usual place... they're not there... i went to another coffe shop... not there either...
i went to mac buy myself a float and went to clementi hawker... they not there either... i give up... i called... called haijiao... nvr pick... called peixuan... nvr pick... so i said to myself... call gary... if they dun pick... i'll go home liao... and so... when im abot to hang up... he picked up...
already felt very sianz liao... no, im not pissed... im not even feeling sad or any disappointed... im feeling something even more then disappoinment can describe...
thanks for leaving me behind even though i said i going to top up... thx for not telling tt u all not eating at kopitiam liao... thx for not noticing anything... yeah... great...
so i reach where they were... i juz put down my xray film... and she said "eh... someone sitting here"... i kept quiet... i juz took a chair... put my stuffs down and left...
when u're disappointed... u juz feel so darn empty and u juz wanted to do something to feel urself... i went back to my sec sch...
memories flow back, happy, sad, fun, excitement... everything...
i lied down on the slide and listened to songs on my phone... and juz lied down there...
i nvr will eva leave a friend behind... tt's why u always see me standing in the back of the crowd... coz i dun wana leave them behind at all!... till now... i only got a handful of friends.... who'll notice and say..."eh? where's tzeweng?" i really appreciates... tt means they notice of ur presence...
there's once a friend.. Junren... he nvr failed to notice me... we're not very close friends... but when we go out as a group... he'll notice me... even though he noes tt im juz right at the back...
and tis time?... im not left behind the crowd... im juz simply being forgotten?... i wonder... did i nvr eva wait for u all?... maybe... i duno... i juz felt super disappointed wif u guys...
huifang finally msged... hey, where are u?... i went back... i juz sat and gulped my drink down, and left...
the train went off, gotta wait for 8 mins and the rest came...
nvr talk to them... dun even feel like talking...
den eugene msged... (im so vexed when suddenly so many sms came in) he say sorry, forgot to remind me to eat medicine(im suppose to eat at 8, he sent the msged at 12)... haijiao den msged... u called me ah?...
sometimes it's juz too late when things come... jzu too late...
after tonite sleep... i think i'll be fine tml... tml go see doc... den no prgrm liao...
sun go beach... wana do alot of things... collect palawan's sand, try my spiking, go swimming, go blading... and finally... 1 tub of ice cream...
den next week?... i might wana go do makeover... still deciding...
damn... when a psn is down... everything in the world will juz go against him... darn... both my tagboard dun wrk... arghz!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1
dun stand behind me, coz i may not lead...
dun stand in front of me, coz i may not follow...
stand beside me, and be my friend...
...it's autumn time, 12:48 AM