Everyday is a sunny day!

it's going to be new year soon... my friends are going to fullerton to spend their nite there... i wana go, but my parents dun allow... coz i still sick. DAMN... why in tis time?... haix... those i wana meet got go, den jul nvr go... biangz, it's a perfect chance for me to enjoy loh... but... arghz...

i even slept in the noon to prepare myself for the nite. but i juz cant convince my parents to let me go... oso cant convince myself... actually my dad kept quiet, but i noe wat he meant... they're worried abot my illness, coz it isnt the 1st time i tis yr...

great to noe tt aifen u got ur pay, so tml how? u haven inform me!:p glad to noe tt red cross already got 5+million, sph got 1.2million, govt got 2million, looks like my 15million will reach very soon.

today is also the end of channel U... i felt sad abot it too. I think no one can deny tt channel U is better in terms of creativity. all their ideas are original, those reality shows and gameshows. tt's wat i preferred to watch ch U more in these areas. but their own drama series wasnt bad at all too! Ling Lou, i think it's my favourite drama in yr 2004 liao... the story is... WOW! too bad mediacorp wana use it method of wrking... so we'll have to lose... hope tt creativity and originality will rise in mediacorp... coz tt's where i think i'll be going to wrk after NS.

new year, muz have resolutions... i dun have the habit of making resolutions. coz i think of it, i'll do it... rite now im thinking of helping to rebuild their homeland. guess i'll take any chance tt i can to go. but think quite hard too... by tt time i in NS le... unless they send NS ppl go. I'll be the 1st to volunteer.

and yah, muz say sorry to yongxiong too... sorry cant join poly 50, coz i really duno it's on weekdays. ITP dun juz take excuse letter and approve... hopefully u all still can win w/o me:)

New year, New wishes, New hopes... i wish that everyone around me will be happy and hope tt i'll be even happier den this yr, oso to find my gal soon:p

...it's autumn time, 11:35 PM

6th day since it struck, taking away some 125,000 lives... omg... ive heard be hundreds dead, or thousands dead... but now? ten thousand!...

online forum is getting sick... i dun wana go there to read anymore, all they are doing is complaining and complaining. looks like tt's wat singaporeans like to do best. They wanted to cancel of the new year countdown... duh...-_-" although neighbouring countries are hit, but tt shdn't hit new year countdown as well... juz like lee hsien loong said, the countdown shd carry on but dun make it too big or "high" as it said. Mediacorp also cancelled the live telecast and ppl present at the party will have a minute of silence.

i think it's enuff for tt. Coz im sure thai will be having their water festival soon enuff, they'll still celebrate their new year even though of the disaster.

but this new year is sure a boring 1 for me... duno whether is it affected by the tsunami, or it is really tt boring. There's no prgrm lined up, im still coughing, i have to go for blood test later... everything is so.... dead... no mood for new year?... yah sort of...

looking at the mrning news, i felt consoled and also proud as a singaporean, and ive been always proud to be the citizen of singapore and living in singapore. it's the best place i can be in and im not thinking of else where. but some singaporeans are juz not satisfied...

heard tt the red cross has collected over 4 million dollars when they 1st aimed for 2million. tt's singapore. we're stingy sometimes... but when come to the need. u noe tt we're generous. from all those funding all over the country, from schools to radio stations, from organisations to government, everyone is trying to help in a way or another. (govt donated 2 million, and ppl still claim as little. biangz... tell them to take 2 million out lah! shit them singapore rich but muz reserve for own use oso loh! if not next time is we call for them to help liao lah!)

anyway, wat i wana say is, im sure tt in total, the whole donation singapore going to make is going to be more than 15million :p haha, alot? haha ok lah, thinking tt govt has made 2million, red cross 4million, and other organisations and private sector efforts. and also schools alreadt started on the rebuilding projects, so 15million:) small number.

so ppl STOP SAYING GOVT NO GD! and SINGAPOREANS ROX! hahaha:p but dun be too proud ah:p

1 more thing, oso stop blaming thailand ok... they noe abot the quake, and they thought tsunami might not happen so they delayed the warning due to tourism... if u are the 3rd world country. of coz u wun wana affect ur tourism costing ur country to loss millions of bucks. think in their shoes ok?... though now disaster struck, they have learnt their lessons too. but all in all. singapore, stop complaining and help:)

oopz:p haha jackie chan although donate abit little lah... but every little count rite? u got donate anot? talk so much:p bleah:p

...it's autumn time, 9:33 AM

juz a slight update, 4 days since the attack of the tsunami... 63000 ppl died and it may reach up to 100,000... im bz calling ppl to help out by donating... hope u can too. every dollar counts, i dun think anyone will reject ur money.

Good time divides people
Misery unites people
This is human nature
Its the same everywhere
Given the same situation
Someone once asked
Where is god when we need him

k, pause for the sad stuffs, now for the gd ones:p

ystrday i met shinsian!!! wahahaha:p went to pass her xmas gift @ woodlands. she was wearing black:p black shirt, black jeans, black belt, cooL!:p haha, stylo wor. i think ive to wrk harder to reach her kind of standard. the way im wearing now is like... erm... duno how to describe...

i wonder wat makes me hang on to her for so long... let me see... 6yrs+ liao? though i noe tt we're not possible...

anyway, it was juz a moment of exchanging, i pass her gift, she pass me card, den it was the byebye, and i left. But it's enuff to remember and leave an impression liao. her smile, her size, her voice (but i hardly can make out her voice now, coz really nvr talk alot wif her, cant imagine how she talk sometimes) duno why, though it's quite impossible for us, but i still keep on giving her presents on every occasion. is it becoz i really like her tt much? or is it i wana leave an impression in her? at least she remembers me as a guy who keeps giving her presents though we're not close? but 1 thing for sure, she's 1 gal i'll nvr forget.

May Fate brings me a bridge called Chance if we're meant to be.

her card wrote:
yoyo! haha, i know it's abit too late for the xmas card lah...(28th dec already), but it's the thots tt counts rite? hee... oh, yest is ur bday hor?{she remembered my bday, hopefully its true} hapi belated bday! hope u had a wonderful time on xmas and on ur bday... & really thx alot for all the wonderful prez and gifts uve given me...{ive made an impression in her, can we go deeper?} take care & have a wonderful & hapi yr ahead:)

her handwriting nvr change, did my feeling for her changed?

...it's autumn time, 10:08 AM

my bday over liao... how's it ystrday? erm... ok lah... it's juz another day...

maybe this year, the most different thing is tt i got lots more sms greetings den any other years... replied alot of happy bday sms:p and thx to all those who sent me sms greetings even though i might not receive... singtel got problem ah....:(

mrning went to wrk as usual den after i dismiss... went to dover mrt to meet rane to get my bday gift

den later went to JP meet aunty to buy puzzle frame... damn JPW... everything oso ex... den i bday oso no discount for me:( no fair... anyway i still bought it, coz aunty got 20% discount... better den nthing... $60+ ah... broke!!!!!!

after tt, aunty wants me to find bday gift for myself... eh? biangz... i nvr buy bday gift for myself b4 loh... hahaha... nvr tell me in advance oso:p kk, when i see wat i want liao den i tell ya ok? haha... or aunty, u bao ang bao for me lah? hahahaha

later she went off to collect her dress while i went to eat wif my family at seoul garden. my sis's friend join us too.. biangz... ex... $114+ for 5 psn...-_-"

den went to giordano buy a pants and a "yuan" shirt, my 1st pink shirt, hopefully it'll be ok on me...:p

bloated liao, den go back wushu, coz the performance coming liao, so muz go learn new stuffs... they celebrated dec babies bday at the end of the training... duno leh... dun feel excited at all... why ah? my bday leh... i tot ive been waiting so long for this day?....

maybe it's abot the tsunami... sad thing to happen before my bday... today the record goes up to 30000 dead and still rising... haix...

now bloggin, keep drinking mugs and mugs of water... cough cough cough non stop... wah... no more medicine le!... tml have to go buy antibiotics liao... my couh still not recover... flu oso... arghz...

ok lah, i not unhappy... juz sad only... got some bday presents and some xmas gifts... thx:)
friday coming soon... got any programmes?

...it's autumn time, 10:11 AM

YOZ! IM BACK! got miss me??? gahhaha... today im officially 19 liao! hehehe
k... when im gone this 1 mth... alot ppl asked...
i tot i got say b4 liao? haha nvm, here i say again....
this 1 mth, i nvr blog coz i wana see how much change will happen in me and so... im bloggin here after 1 mth+ :) hehe

anyway, this 1 is another long entry, so bear wif me ok? now is part 1, at nite will have another entry, hopefully i got the jing shen to write.

Summary (Divided into chpters for reading convenience)
after 1 mth of not blogging, i nvr change alot... but i realised tt alot of ppl is actually reading my blog... haha abit happy, coz sec sch friends oso got read:) so we wun tuo jie and lose communications... but tag leh...:p haha so i noe u are here. (is kaixuan reading? Who else is reading? tell me leh... and who's MIA? missing in action ah? mei leh? huimei ah? hahhaa. anyway, im not going constrain wat i write after i noe u are reading:p )

ok, so wat happened in this mth? this mth is a happy mth, coz got alot of meaningful events and stuffs... but of coz sad things do happens... though tis is a happy mth, but im still very affected by jul... her behaviour still upsets me... greatly... (haha, but lucky only 2 times tis mth, so still wun affect too much of happiness in the whole mth actually:p)

*** entry summarised not in order.
Class Gathering (11th Dec)
this is the highlight of the month... hehhee. After so long, finally going to meet again:p we had 1 super fun time recalling our sec sch times, all the jokes, all the fun, all the teachers, all the times we had together... we laughed, we joked, we felt sad for moments, sleepy

but nvrtheless... it was 1 of the hell successful gathering:p though alot cant join us, but they expressed gratitude:p haix... hopefully next yr still got gathering sia... but it will not be me organising le... shd be jiahui they all ba... those who had missed this year's hopefully u can attend the next 1 ba:)

after the bbq ended, i went to jiao's house, crapped abit b4 going to wrk for the Star Awards... sorry ah jiao... so early muz disturb u liao:p and thx ur mum for tt mi sua for breakfast:)

China Trip (duno when, 11th Dec)
seems like not related to me hoh? but i oso felt excited..:p haha, duno why...went earlier den the rest to go airport see them, took taxi wif elvin and changxing:p went so early oso duno for wat... but i juz noe tt i wana go early. they left china... i felt so sad... coz i cant go china, not becoz i;ll be missing them:p hahha... contacted wif huifang while they in china... so envious them... but i think if i go this time, it wun be as fun as i went the 1st time... but anyway... i STILL SO SAD abot cannot go china:(

haha... the day they returned... biangz... sam straightened and dyed her hair, wanling too... den youming changed the most... his hair totally change sia... but his character like nvr change... if i go china... i think i sure change my character liao...(my another motive of going china is hoping to change:p)

anyway, we celebrated sam's bday at the airport, den they nvr got me souvenirs:( sob:p anyway, den gotta noe dingyan xiaoying they all still there, and they actually asked for me... wah... so touched, haha, they still remembered me... and oso got more jealous... WHY I CANT GO CHINA!!!!!!!!!!!

Weibin
eh... tis 1 short short 1... juz felt tt weibin got more Friend to me liao... coz now we got chat, care and concern i felt... so was happy abot tis... though still left me out sometimes... but i think it's ok for now ba... hopefully we can be better friends as time goes on...

Juliana during training...
juz as when i was feeling soooo happy... den someone will jump out and muz break ur happiness 1... we was playing captain ball, den she's the goalie, i was the opponent team... they throw the ball to her, it's only right i block her ball since im the ONLY 1 left in tt area... so i blocked the ball... and den... "si ah gua, zou kai la!" etc etc etc comes out of her mouth liao... no feel to train for the rest of the day.... and of coz i was hurt, physically.... i cant control the cudgel and it keeps hitting me, den swollen...-_-"

Clique gathering (18th dec)
yeah... hehehe, another gathering:p jealous? hahha no lah... this 1 is rong organise 1, go her house steamboat, oso to celebrate xmas:) wahaha had fun times there too:p thx junren for ur gift, nice, and really like rongz said, it suited me:) and thx rong for organising:)

i got to see siaohui, szekia, kelvin, jiahui and zhijie, all long long nvr see them... missed them too... everything ended at 12am:P HAHAHa ... lucky i live near:p can walk home... anyway, it;s a pity tt peishan cant attend... hope uve recovered by now laio.

Community Service (19th Dec)
haha, after clique gathering is doing community service @ sungei buloh wetland reserve... tt's why i say this is a happy mth... so many stuffs to do:p we're supposed to "lead" families in the reserve, but we was the 1 playing instead:p hahhaa... abit funny ah... the IC(hansong's shijie, duno wat name liao) actually recognised me... i participated the "give a hand" charity b4... but it was like sooo long ago?...

haha, anyway, today was the day i actually interacted wif kah boon or Carbon... he wasnt the quiet quiet i tot i knew loh... very noisy ah he... haha... den muz help him find Oxygen too... so they can make carbon monoxide...-_-" got some pictures and videos... duno can upload anot... hopefully can when i go borrow bluetooth:p

at 1st quite fun lah...l den SUAY! things does happen eh... i was being attached to the same grp as jul... when the IC say i attached to her grp... her face changed straight...-_-" haix...

after finishing and returned back to CC, we went for a drink... i drank neslo... quite nice leh, somehow i think i'll be addicted... maybe shd try at home:p hahhaa...

she sat in front of me, felt disgusted and she die die wana change seat wif wanling... diaoz... is tt necessary?... haix...

Retrenchment (20th dec)
yes... my dad kena retrenched liao... till now i think 1 week already... company compensated him 10mths of salary only... biangz... think no need 5 mth all $$ gone liao... (coz we already overspent every mth via pub bills, phone bills, insurance, house, etc etc etc) hopefully by this week he can find job liao...

he needa endure at least 2 more years b4 he retire... coz he muz wait for me to finish NS... den i wrk liao my turn to yang jia le... sianz... my sis got 8 more yrs of study... muz earn alot sia... reserve for her, dad, mum... and LAO PO BEN!

Internship
yah... internship was bad since i complained... but im appreciated ive got this job liao lah... pay wasnt tt bad, $420 per mth... job wasnt tt bad too... everyday do powerpoint slides... got abit of video wrk... but sianz oso... ok.. basically, mai hiam buai pai, ai hiam ke na sai:p hahaha....
and yah... basically, my everyday job is to edit powerpoint or video, den sleep and eat... all the way till 5+ den dismiss:p

haha... today i listening to cantonese and buddhist songs... den last week watch anime:p wahaha slack ah!

XMAS gifts
cheap gift, but an expensive thought... tis is 1 thing i wana say abot tis yr's xmas gift... sorry i cant make a unique gift for everyone tis yr... coz i really got not enuff time. i even redo 6 of them... coz the result is very ugly...

actually i wana put a small bottle filled wif glow-in-dark sand inside a boiling tube... boiling tube filled wif glitter and when u switched off the lights, u can see the wrds "merry xmas" sillouette made by the macaroni sticked inside the small bottle. but the glitters did not sink into the water, the macaroni wrds are covered by the sand instead... so... haha... sorry if u got those ugly 1s... coz i really dun have time liao:p

got 2 ex gifts i think... 1 for shinsian... another for *******. hahha, man man cai:p anyway glad tt she liked it... she was touched... erm.. but we're still friends... dun think too much i guess... hhahaha... and for the rest... hopefully u like the gift ok?

hehe... happy liao happy liao:p im going to meet shinsian to pass her xmas gift... wahahha happy liao... i got her me-to-you bear wearing purple sweater... hiak hiak hiak

ok... jul, why muz i mention her? haha... anyway, i got her a cheap banana chips, coz i really sianz to make her something ah... she juz dun appreciates stuffs i do... anyway, i wrote tis for her "last xmas, last gift, last blessing" and that is going to mark the end of our friendship laio... today weibin is going to pass her, so today is the last day i treat her as friend liao... after today, she's no more den a stranger le i guess... (hopefully she wun affect me anymore, but i know it wun be tt ez)

1 more happy happy thing in tis category is the day i pass gifts to some ppl... haha... all gals, very fun:p hahah... 1st is rouhui, waiteng and anna... nvr noe michelle oso there... psps:p so went to popular and get her a pen... wrapped of coz... sat and chat awhile there... den go back to my w313(my lab for attachment)

After tt rane and tingyun came;p we took a few picts on our hp:p hahaha fun fun! summore long long nvr see my ex wife liao:p hahaha... den there's 1 pict... i took wif my "wife", rane, i super like tt pict... coz it's the 1st time tt i think i had a veri nice smile wor:p hahah coz tt day i really happy, so the smile is the natural me... now i noe why last time xuan, aunty, jiao and jul said i got nice smile... but wu4 yi3 xi1 wei2 gui4(things are valued when there's little of it), u all muz cherish my smile ah:) hahaha. got chance i upload tt photo.

Den peixuan went pass us, tis is yi wai sou huo:p haha... we chatted awhile... den she left to eat, rane treated me ice cream. thx:) hehe... den they went too after we finished ice cream... den i meet wanling to pass her her gift too:p haha, i call this gals meeting day... hahaha... juz by passing gifts i oso had so much fun... tis is 1 happy mth!

i muz save lioa... no $$... xmas makes me broke:(

Committee Meeting / Miscelleneous (23rd Dec)
today during comm meeting... she did it again... haix... wat the hell... i couldnt bother her much... but today she made me feel like tearing... i forgot wat she did liao... but i really ren zhu, make sure i dun tear...
after meeting, weibin they all wana go buy xmas gift... they asked who going... i say anything... den they take it as i going... den jul say "wo BU YAO qu" muz emphasize tt bu yao meh? actually its so obvious she's remarking me loh... not i sensitive ba...

weibin went yew tee to get something... while hong, gary and me went to mac to eat, except me
coz i really emptied liao... left $1... im so broked:( sob sob... coz xmas i spend quite alot:p though each gift shd cost less den $3.... but so many to give, so oso alot $$

while eating... i sort of talked abot jul... well... im quite happy and consoled... actually ppl are seeing tt jul is behaving childishly... i tot only peixuan and some others are standing on my side... heng still got others stand wif me:) they knew abot when we play captain ball, her wrds are hurting, knew abot during meeting her behaviour was unreasonable... but all nvr say out... i think it's ok liao... now i noe u all know abot it is more den enuff le... no need to tell her or talk reasons to her liao... she wun listen to u all 1... juz glad tt u all noe can liao:)

juz a few more mths to endure only... i can do it 1:)

anyway went till quite late ah... and tt's when my 1st cough came and i got sick... few days nvr sleep well... sianz... tonite i oso cant sleep well... coz still got so many gifts haven finish...

Malacca(24th-26th Dec)
went malacca after i dismissed from wrk... arghz... i cant join wushu ppl for their outing... so sad... they going to watch Kung Fu.. i wana watch too! anyway, going m'sia to attend a wedding dinner... my zhi er... haha so fast got ppl need to serve me tea liao:p hahha... but in the end nvr serve... coz got some cock up for the tea ceromony...

reach there, ok lah... nth much, coz is my lao jia(old home) got sick over there... very sick summore... reason? i didnt sleep well for 4 days coz making xmas gift... and it made me sick... but wasnt tt sick still... but the 2nd day in malacca, hopped onto 1 relative's car (i duno who is he, long distance relative, nvr see b4) den his car got no aircon, so open the window, i was sitting by the windows... the polluted air and dust is wat i breathing in... and TADA... i got sick... actually shd be 3 more days b4 i become really sick but it catalysed my condition... was having fever, flu, cough. 40 degrees during nite and 38.5 when i go see doc... got some anitbiotics, tablets and cough syrup... felt better but not best...

yah. got some clothes back... die die muz buy some ah... if not bai bai go m'sia liao:p haha..
bought a purple sweater(hey, i like it not becoz it's purple ah... anyway they only have purple) and 1 shirt i guess... very little stuffs i buy... sick... no feeling to walk too much ah:p

den came back singapore around 6 den...

Tsunami (26th Dec)
the day b4 my bday, 26th... was a disaster. the day i returned from malacca, i saw this on news... indonesia kena a 9.0 scale earthquake, causing a 10metres tsunami to sweep across indian ocean, affecting india and malaysia... recorded up to 12000 lives lost and thousands missing... xiong duo ji shao. felt so sad... it was so sudden and i was shocked even though i was not there... 19yrs of living, tis is the 1st time i heard abot tsunami attack... so many ppl died... worst, it's holiday. haix... so many disasters happening consecutively, does it really means amageddon coming? anyway, whether it comes or not... i juz wana tell ya ppl, dun take things for granted... ur peace now is for now, it might not means forever. and be sad about ystrday disaster juz liek 2 years ago, Twin Tower, last year, SARS... next year have 1 more, confirm 1... let us be prepared.
(actually tot tt yr1 ive made counter 911, den now make another short film abot tsunami?)

Sickness
yah... so i sick... so wat's the big deal? the deal is i sick to many times tis yr liao if uve notice... all is cough... each time is serious cough... cant escape... like now if dun have antibiotics den i wun cure like tt... my aunt says tt my body has overwrked and now revolting against me liao... so no more late nites for me... (but no choice den still have to drive nite train lah) den she oso say if i still not recover after tis medication, i have to go for blood test for precaution... wah... sianz... better get well... oso muz rest well...

My BDAY!(27th Dec)
BIO:
Ng Tze Weng (Felix)
27th December 1985
OX/Capricorn
3060grams when born, same as sister
2157hrs born
O+ saviour blood
KK hospital
Fav No: 1227

today's my bday... very happy, but i still have to wrk wif tis sickness stuck wif me... is blogging in my wrk place for 6hrs liao:p wahahaha nvr do any wrk at all... i can think how long my entry is liao:p hahaha anyway 19 le, da yi shui le, but i think my mind is matured liao, so need to be mature liao:P i still wana be a kid in front:p

bday wishes nvr comes true for me, so no need wish for myself le, i wish for my dad to get a job soon and others to be happy... less disasters, so sad to hear them...

quick quick! wish me happy bday! wahahaha... got presents? dun hesitate to give me! coz i 100% will accept 1:p ahahhahah!

Others
there are so many happy and sad stuffs tt i duno got wat liao... so? haha, tis category is here juz to tell ya there's actually more happy times but i didnt record down everyday.

later den meet aunty to go buy frame for my puzzle...finally, my puzzle got frame liao... tt puzzle was from gary last yr:p haha

den tml maybe go meet shinsian:p hiak hiak, den new year eve coming... wana dawn leh, but my body cant take it lioa i guess. last time cant dawn 4 nitez... now 3 nite already sick... think now i nite oso very xiong liao...

haha den sat maybe i jio jiahui, rongz etc etc out to watch Kungfu hehehe... excited again... but duno whether can get tix anot... muz book. who got credit card to lend?

k, say tis in advance, my new year resolution... Im going to get taller:p hahaha tis looks more like wish den resolution hoh:p but i really wana shoot another short film, the wushu short film, it's 1 very nice product if i able to put time and effort in it.

tt day went IMM buy "little star" for rane for her bday(though its in march, but i have to buy now, coz they only selling during xmas) den saw chunhoe, not bad eh... tis mth indeed 1 gd mth:p december ROX!

Summary 2
summarising again, actually i do have abit of change... i think i felt more happy liao, but i still cant find the past "me" back. Happy moments do keeps happening, sad stuffs wun be able to happen more den happy stuffs now:)

frm the above, i can oso see tt actually ive been spending quite alot of happy moments... not like previous entries where sadness overwhelm me... anyway, now u realise why i say tis is a happy mth? coz got so many stuffs to do... so packed! hahaha...

spent 6 hrs here... hopefully u can read finish it all:p

thx to all my friends who gave me such wonderful time tis mth... hopefully next mth, january, will be a happy mth too:) and happy blogs will flood here:) hehehe... lastly, wishing myself a happy happy bday once again.

and a minute of silence for all lives(11600) that are lost ystrday...

...it's autumn time, 9:54 AM

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