Everyday is a sunny day!

Well.. gordon, this post can make you and me sane=p lol...

Yes i almost got into an accident again... 4th time in a year... great=p anyway ive bought accident insurance... heng i bought it already=p

Anyway, it's a rainy day at the expressway, somehow the cab is driving fast and the accident scenario is almost the same as the last cab accident... where the front cars slowed down forming a jam and the cab driver cant break in time. Well.. this time i would say the cab driver really slow and nvr break in time...

So by the time he apply his full force on the break, he skidded and at the speed we're at, we'll head right into the front car and i'll be either hospitalised or dead... but heng... he managed to squeezed into a small space in the next lane... so tt's heng for me too...

my heart nvr skipped... it juz woke me up from my half awake state... it beats faster and harder... Jesslin would be the last to 'talked' to me if anything happens... i think i had a flash but i cant remember wat was the flash back abot anymore=p

lol... i think im gonna be immuned to accidents soon-_-"

...it's autumn time, 4:40 AM

it's really very idiotic when a couple is having a v early wedding and their place is right at the other end from my house-_-"

It's not the timing and the venue that is idiotic... wat's idiotic is that i will worry that i cant wake up on time and in the end i cant fall aslp-_-" this is the 3rd time i kena such a thing... where i needa wake at 3 or 4 am juz coz the couple is living at the other end and making their weddign early...

tml is the worse so far... coz it's going to be a 10hrs consecutive shoot... from 5am all the way till 3pm..
super xiong!!! im gonna eat DX and etc and hopefully miracles happen after my shoot and blast my sunday a happy day again=p

meanwhile.... i really cant fall aslp back liao... so gonna do some work=p

...it's autumn time, 2:38 AM

Felt abit low today... not really coz im not unhappy... im juz not really feeling what im feeling... hahaha... kinda wierd eh?

Was messaging fangfang today during lesson... and she was angry that why i always brings out her bf when quoting examples... haha... i duno why also... maybe in hana we always use bf/gf as examples... and she got angry over it anyway...

What's the wierd feeling is that ive long gotten over her already and i know i have someone else inside my heart... yet when she's protecting so much over her bf... i kinda have a wierd feeling inside me... but im sure that's not jealousy...

Aint know how to describe... but few things went on today... Jesslin's grandma hospitalised, Loreen getting sick... and all the more i realise that im so ready to go out to my friends when they might need me... but it's at the very same time i realise... i can only always be a gd friend and i'll always remain a single... maybe that's wat striked me the most today...

haha.... in a way, ya, im emoing... but no... im not crying and cant move on...

the other day i was talking with Liang ge... he says that im okie looking wat... so many female friends oso... capable as well... how come not attached? hahaha... it came even more striking when at batam trip they know me that im only attached once... lol...

I can see myself being successful in the years to come... i can see myself building up what i need to achieve my goals... i can see myself doing alot of stuffs... but i cant see the other half coming in...

and that's when today im having this thots... maybe being single is good after all... first time in my life im having this thot... if my dad knows this... he'll hate me for sure=p hahaha....

...it's autumn time, 3:40 AM

It's really a kind of mixed feelings...

I know i should do what i should do and not what i wana do...

But den... this is feelings... not work

I know my feelings, but i duno my actions

...it's autumn time, 11:59 PM

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