Everyday is a sunny day!

a sudden bit of emoness...

i felt that my room doesnt contain any warmth now... it used to be so neat, and so homely... coming into the room feels like going home... those who came into my room will feel the same way too...

now... the purple in the room dun bring me the warmth... neither do every other thing in the room... it juz feels so different.

actually i felt so strange to the room... it dun seems to be the room i used to have anymore...

i think im trying to find ways to deceive myself to get some warmth that i wanted... but till now... i think it only happened that day. when it is raining v v v v heavily, while i hid under my blanket...

that feeling, is indescribable....

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...it's autumn time, 2:30 AM

If anyone had noticed my nick on msn, i said abot im having a feeling that something good might happen this week...

Well, i have no idea whether the good has came, but i definitely felt good this week=p

Less of FOC stuffs, more sleep, though less $$, but more fun, coz played mahjong and finally met up wif my buddies...

recently ive been slping b4 10pm, den woke up at 4am!! haha, they say it's healthy, slp early, wake early, personally, i quite like it=p ahaha... coz wake up at 4am, awake, refreshed and best, got time to do wrk=) wat's even better? i woke up w/o alarm=p wahahahhahaha...

hope that the next few weeks my life would be routine like tis=)

Jamie (my lady boss) told me tt a couple i shot was used as a sample to promote me, and the result was quite well... and yeah! im stressed now.... coz when i went to the bride's place tt day, she already finished make up and she's really chio=p haha, look like yang chen lin=p tt's why i was so excited and actually talked to the bride and capture quite a few good shots. everything was on my side tt day and really... that highlight was really nice=p

so now, im in abit of trouble=p coz i gotta talk and chat wif all couples now and actually try to get the same feel... jialat... stress=p hahahhahha=p but anyway, i believed and trust my wedding shots now... can do it!=)

...it's autumn time, 10:14 AM

Recently, there's alot of works that has to deal with lots of concepts and i need lots of inspiration.

So through soooooooo much research, ive encountered sooooooooo much good works as well and im so much flooded with good designs, works, installations and stuffs like tt...

That makes me even more sure that the company that i going to start will work. but the prob... can i do as gd? haha... i shd be starting to look at employing students... coz they have more source... or rather, time, to search and get more inspiration....=p

shall bring u a little bit of inspiration

...it's autumn time, 9:19 AM

some short little update...

last week was a non-slp week. Actually is the last few weeks... the FOC event is really taking up alot of my time... which makes me quite sianz as well=p

this week is a no money week... totally cashless... and needa get $$ from parents in order to meet my needs-_-" no choice... seriously broke. coz driving really spent quite alot=p plus no work... so now gotta chiong wrk and academic a little...

last week i oso nvr attend class! okie lah... only 2 claz for the whole week. the rest i ponned=p mon art i pon juz to go chinatown to do 2D but in the end it rained, so i nvr went. Attended the sociology claz later, at nite chionged out 4D installation

serious tedious work for this installation... full of thumbtacks... duno kena pricked how many times while we hanged this up... but guess wat? if successful, u might see it in the display window at walkway from citylink to esplanade=p

So we wrked till 5/6am in da mrning which i went home, took a shower, and overslpt for the lesson tt day=p and i slpt thru till i missed my history lecture as well=p and nite we went gathering wif samantha and yeah=p skipped my tutorial too=p lol...

The next day is wed lioa, suffered frm severe gastric pain which made me skipped my 3D lesson as well-_- heng thu i nvr skip anymore=p but almost did... coz got the gastric feeling back oso=p

was glad wif my last 2 week's of assignment handed up... i think it's of quite gd quality... damn happy for myself=)

A calendar about time and colours

we're suppose to do a calendar and involve time as a colour. so i chose night and day, using the colour spectrum to depict the colours we see frm dawn to dusk

ive only printed out from jan to jun coz the printing was really ex=p

this is the fun part of the work, it can shift and form the next picture

so i have 2 mths in 1 set

The sun oso rise and sets when the 'time' moves

nice? lol

A collage done juz last week was commented as good too... happy=p

Just a simple use of space

after lesson den we took photos=p Clarence, a guy in da claz has disappeared for v v v v v v long and suddenly came to claz! lol... no lah, actually he got so much committments outside tt he nvr comes to claz-_-"

so we took the intiative and created the "WhereTheFuckIsClaaaaarence" group

Notice the colours in the photos? there's actually 7 of us tt day wearing different colours and actually formed the rainbow colour. damn nice=) best is tt we nvr set it, juz pure coincidence=)

last to post is paintings... 2 weeks ago we tried wif ink paintings... and mine sux to the core... so i went to draw on my own studying how to draw the details instead...

not very nicely done though... but i think ink painting is quite nice=)

...it's autumn time, 1:26 PM

Yesterday was at a gatherng with samantha...

How should i say? I think everyone is really growing up... especially when they see those younger den them growing. In just 2 days tme, she'll be on her way to US for her working internship for a year. Quite cool... and i wish for the best for her. This trip means quite alot to her ba... After so much talking and advising, it's great to see her setting her path to her chosen future=)

And it's been soooooooooooooo long since the whole group went out together le... really long... miss those gd old days where we can juz go sentosa on weekends, go night cycling during sch holidays... stay till late nites to eat supper together...

Morning i suffered from quite a severe gastric pain... which actually sets me off wondering... why am i so busy till i actually dun have time for myself? no link to my pain but den juz wana say=p lol

Was thinking... what am i trying to prove? for making myself so god damn bz? no time to slp, no time for myself... there wasnt any clear purpose of doing this at all... to make myself forget of something? i dun even need those cca points-_-" seriously...

bah... shant think of it too much now... since ive already taken the job, shall do it den... juz hope tt i wun be dead by the end of it=p

...it's autumn time, 5:00 AM

I duno why... but recently, there seems to be a trend of people talking about what is friends. About friends are not being true to you, what are true friends, cannot believe in people anymore coz you dun even know you can trust ur friends anot...

-_-"

Seriously... it turns me off totally... if u're questioning if someone is true to you or not, den maybe u can start questioning urself, being suspicious of ur 'friend', are you even considered a friend of his/hers?

Why is there a need to define so exactly who are friends, who arent? who are true and who's not true? basically... u can juz feel and tt's it. U dun trust tt guy, by all means, he can dun be a friend, he can juz be someone who's juz a Hi and Bye person. If you trust tt psn, den watever it is, why suspect she or he being true to you or not?

-_-"

Stop being cynical, skeptical or watever you call it. It's juz plain irritating when i see ppl dun even trust their so called friends-_-".

...it's autumn time, 6:23 AM

was chatting...

was reminded of small little stuffs in my life...

my little aims...

my little hearts in life...

some things are juz not going out of ur brain no matter how long it has past...=p

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...it's autumn time, 2:38 AM

Finally... the open house has ended...

It's quite funny how ive survived last week without much slp... and yah... i think it's really getting my health on the verge=p can still remember how ez i can get irritated last week...

Slept for 22hrs ystrday... and ive still got things i haven do=p

Watching matrix juz now... some things never change. but some things do...

Another xiong week coming up... i will survive=p

oh yah! 1 more of my classmate in poly got married!!!!
lol.... cant be there anyway, coz not close oso... but those close to me 1... eh! ur wedding dun care employ me or not... u better get me a ur videographer=p LOL~ side line 1 oso can=p haha

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...it's autumn time, 1:51 AM

I think i got the words "Road Directory" carved on my head... i have 3 or more persons coming to ask me directions in a week!!!

Currently 3am... im in school, doing the video for tml's exhibition... damn... no need to sleep liao... exporting damn slow...

Utilising the film's lab computer liao... hopefully can speed up=p

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...it's autumn time, 2:49 AM

Im very very tireddddddd=(

now in school, chionging video for company, coz need $$$$$=(

and im sooooo packed up in school... pls pls pls... i hope i have some time for myself after this exhibition is over... i really wana slppppppppp... or at least have abit of fun for myself....

...it's autumn time, 4:35 AM

Nudity is so common in art school till im immuned already.

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...it's autumn time, 1:09 PM

Mahjong, when played with your friends, is really a kind of destress as well...
even though it might means losing money...

i felt that im feeling lighter after playing with them... though im now on a heavy debt as well. lol!~

luck recently is getting even worse and worse=p for the last 4 games i played. i lose everytime and now shd total up to around $500?

-_-"

Gd luck weng=p

...it's autumn time, 5:09 AM

Haven been happy for a very long time. Even though it's only a matter of 2 weeks or so... but it simply feels like shit...

The FOC and academic doesnt stress me at all... but one person turns it all. Quite vexed and stressed abot it. If u freaking dun wana listen to explaination... den how u expect me to listen to you as well?

Vexed... till i was having some serious headaches last week and i cant do my works at all... that resulted in me not slping at all... okie... maybe that 2 or 3 hrs for those few days...

Holiday wasnt of fun or meaningful. I did my assignments half heartedly, and very slow. Dun have the kick to do work and feel very fan about xandra. Her strong attitude is evolving to stubborness and is getting really bad and out of hand. As a friend, im still tolerating it but i dun think i will be soon. If she dun trust what im doing, im not be able to lead her. If she's crossing my line... den i shall make my line bold, underlined and make sure she knows it. If you're pissed off, so am i. But we're not doing things for ourselves only...

Holiday week went by v fast. Ended the last day of my holiday by going sentosa for surf and sweat. Thot i will be having fun, but not really in the end. USS quiz is the next day and everyone was actually feeling lethargic. I oso sianz later on... dun feel like doing anything...

So we stayed on, played 1 game, get the goodie back and we left with taking 100+ photos for the day=p lol... After lunch, we parted and went back home to study. USS-_-" so much reading... v turned off.

Monday, original plan was to skip Art foundation and go somewhere to chill myself from the unfair treatment. but in the end i studied for USS the whole nite till the quiz itself. 1st day tt i didnt slpt.

After the hopeless quiz, we waited for Yingjie's friends to come over to NTU... and she blurblur waiting for duno wat as well *it's meant as a surprise. Think she's damn gullible... so easy to trick and bring her around the sch and make her wait=p lol... anyway, i still owe her her frog prince...-_-" man... cant believe it... u're actually 21 liao... LOL

Nightmare usually comes in episodes... the nite was another, coz the next day is history presentation. Chionged the nite again for this presentation. 2nd nite of not slping.

Tue nite was still a big trouble in slping... ive got really bad headaches accumulated frm the prev few days and finally took panadol... which allowed me to slp 3hrs b4 going sch in the end...

Went to 3D on time though... 1st time not late=p was quite satisfied wif my work... but peter nvr really gave much comment on it... i guess... effort is there... but not concept ba... after sch we continued wif the chionging of 2D and we managed to get it printed... damn heng for me... coz mine is matt laminating, whcih takes longer and oso more ex... lucky sunshine open till later... if not i sure die...

It's then when we walked around bugis area to buy ourstuffs, i realised im really getting thinner... i can really see my bone now... super thinned-_-" not really worried... but den i noe it's not gd... thinking abot these few weeks i oso haven been eating gd... it;s really bad... like everyone would have said... pls stop getting thinner!!!

So few days of not slping have really made me shagged out and i decided to slp first den do my 2D work... and the next moment? i woke up at 7am-_-" which my claz will start at 9am???!!!!

abit sadded... coz my work i deeply believed it's finally an A for my effort in 2D but den destroyed by myself for over slping... damn sianz... in the end my works was like... okie lah... barely made it... and reached sch by 1230... =(

Went for driving after that and i dazed through out the driving... seems like i drives better when i daze-_-" damn damn tired

i reached home den i go to slp le... den i heard my phone ring during my slp, but i hung it up... in the end? wat happened was this:

Mum came into my room and saw nobody inside the room *When im already there lying dead on my bed, so she called my but i hung up and so she thot im in claz... when she came in again to my room at 11+ den she was shocked to see my in teh room-_-" my god... my existence was juz removed like tt loh...

anyway, abit sadded tt i cant go taiwan wif sam for the wedding shoot... it's paid air fare... i wana go=(... but im still schoolign tt week... actually, it's final submission week... so.. haix... nvm... see if i can go for the sabah 1 ba=p

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...it's autumn time, 12:37 AM

Just found this list in my file... a schedule of plans... of the mthly celebrations that was intended to have.

Ive looked through it, crushed it, and dumped it.

For ive squeezed half a year worth of plans in her last bday... and her next bday, she dun need me...

...it's autumn time, 7:02 AM

Been having headaches these few days... academic shall nvr and has nvr made me so stressful before... so it isnt academic... still damn sianded and vexed over it... felt so irritated as well...

The break was so not useful at all looking at the way im doing my work now... seriously I DUN WAN TO TOUCH anything is gonna make my USS and history suffer...

A.R.G.H.Z

Lol... think my brother really understands me more liao... lol... after mahjong tt day... i think he sees that im troubled and tried to jio me out these 2 days... but sadly... i cant make it... maybe fri ba... go training again... but training? haix... let me consider twice 1st ba=p

anyway, hopefully wed can go KTV... to sing my headaches away=p

*it's quite funny the way stickgal's life is being supported by so many readers. recently she got attached, but she quoted, happy for now. Seems like she doesnt have gd r/s b4... Trust is lost? dun think so... coz she started a new r/s... but rather... not a v high hope she pins on him ba...

haix... going back to history

*im so not interested in the NTU commit suicide case...

...it's autumn time, 12:02 AM

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