Everyday is a sunny day!

There's once a girl, i date her out, she says no, coz there's a training for her to go.
She wouldnt want to miss, even a lesson at all.
There's this girl, now not at training, i wonder where she went.
Though not a lie she told me, but i still felt deceived.

Labels: emo

...it's autumn time, 6:11 PM

Why cant people juz trust and compromise in the way they do work?

Is it very hard? That one simply needa give and take to let the big picture work?

I dun see why im doing it yet others cant-_-" it's juz simply different working styles but everyone is going towards the same aim... why do i have to force myself and accept other's style and make myself even more stress and not producing-_-"

It feels very very irritating when you wana talk to a friend and every words that comes out of ur mouth, every text that you type, you have to do it with extra caution and care. So that misunderstand will not occur and sometimes even... tracking back on wat ive said? this is like even more stress den working itself-_-"

If it's so hard to trust someone... den i think im overdoing it in trusting ppl...

Hasnt been a great week for me. Missed out lots of fun for myself, but upsetting things didnt missed, all quite accurate and came at the same time. Quite unhappy... in fact, yah, very... Not only school work, foc... and maybe abit of personal time ba... juz realised tt everyday im doing things for other reasons but not for myself...

So, im giving myself a break=p gonna skip mon's lesson... wahahaha... gonna borrow a dslr and go out to relax... it's time to reward myself... since i haven been doing it at all... always say wana break wana break wana break... instead i seemed to work harder and harder...

In times like this... i stopped juz now... dun wana do any work and stayed silence and calm... and u'll start to appreciates the small little stuffs in life is surrounding me that makes me feel better...

Lying down nuaing on my sofa, there's dad reading newspaper, everyday ensuring that our lively needs is met and i dun have any worries abot the famiy and concentrate on my study... mum who always observes quietly and tries to support in a way or so... she juz offered me and sis bird nest=p lol... though is those cheapo kind of bottled 1... but still... she dun have it and gave to us... Sis who finally grown up slightly already... but still a long way to go... shall be waiting for the day she can not let us worry ba... but den... haha... who can do so? i think we'll be forever worrying for her... i have my 2 kawaii chins always getting my attention and sadly i cant always be wif them... but yeah=p they noe how i feel at times and let me touch them sometimes=p

Too much things to be vexed over in life... i dun think i can finish all my homework, presentation is on tue, mon got quiz=p... FOC was okie in da beginning and now it really like shit... driving hasnt been well as well... lol... considering the amt of scoldings i got frm the instructor=p

haha... everything not in da mood... needa buy chocs... butttttt-_-" no money... only left wif $100+ like tt... tml mrning driving, after tt im like left wif nthing much liao... work stress as well... gotta give them work... so sch reopen i think i shd be staying in sch trying to do more wrk liao... if not cant feed myself=p

arghz! hope tt skipping mon is something gd for me=)

~friends might not be there always for you, might not be there supporting you when you need them, might not always agrees what you say... but still, that shouldnt be denied from being a friend...

hanging on~

Labels: emo

...it's autumn time, 11:58 PM

A friend said this in her Facebook note...

Saying that friends who supports you are not necessary ur friends... those who supports you to do the wrong things and feeds your ego... they're not friends... and when you're in trouble, they only say things and not act out... and mostly... they dun care.

and so she thinks that her bro is at certain kind of fault and treating his friends more important den the family.

Well... her straightforwardness and bluntness might have brought it to such an situation as well... since she had said it, that ppl likes to hear the gd stuffs, and feed their ego... why cant she be someone supportive as well? of coz no support in making him doing the wrong stuffs, but at least... approve him in doing the right things, den objecting him doing the wrong.

It's a matter of perspective.

Who likes to have a half empty wallet than to a half full wallet?
See the gd side and be supportive, den soon, he'll get to noe the point that u're bring across... being straightforward simply push ppl off... being strong headed isnt going to help...

well... all im saying is... be supportive?

yah... time to think thru again for me... it isnt going to be as easy as it says

***omg shit! FB is really 1 damn wonderful thing sometimes... though im still quite hurt by it -_-" juz found another sec sch friend actually got married! nono... is 2... coz they frm the same sch... same year. hahahha... damn happy! wo de tian... my batch yuan lai so many ppl is already a couple!!! so many young couples around=p hahha... tt's wat i like to see=p young couple=p haha... wish them all the best in their endeavours=)

...it's autumn time, 2:23 AM

It's wierd to talk to myself... keep talking to myself as if ive got nobody to talk to...

haha... but well... i really dun have anyone to talk to-_-"

recently, there's a lot of questions going thru my mind... questions abot me... who i am? wat i am? wat do i wan? am i hiding something? am i giving excuses? are they finding themselves excuses? they're giving a gd name for the bad things they're doing?

Lots of question... philosophical.

well...

back to work=p

...it's autumn time, 6:10 PM

Slow Dance

Have you ever watched kids
On a merry-go-round?
Or listened to the rain
Slapping on the ground?

Ever followed a butterfly's erratic flight?
Or gazed at the sun into the fading night?

You better slow down.
Don't dance so fast
Time is short.
The music won't last

Do you run through each day
On the fly?
When you ask How are you?
Do you hear the reply?

When the day is done
Do you lie in your bed
With the next hundred chores
Running through your head?

You'd better slow down
Don't dance so fast
Time is short.
The music won't last

Ever told your child,
We'll do it tomorrow?
And in your haste,
Not see his sorrow?

Ever lost touch,
Let a good friendship die
Cause you never had time
To call and say,'Hi'

You'd better slow down.
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last

When you run so fast to get somewhere
You miss half the fun of getting there.

When you worry and hurry
through your day,
It is like an unopened gift...
Thrown away.

Life is not a race
Do take it slower
Hear the music
Before the song is over.

...it's autumn time, 2:56 AM

如果不要再掉入陷阱，那就让陷阱远离你。

Everytime i go out wif her... i talked alot to myself... and everytime i do so... i noe that i haven forget her... neither did my heart says no.

Issit jealousy tt's acting?

I juz dun wish her being wif another psn... it's juz pure male dominance...

Sch hasnt been great... no motivation to work at all especially when all my ideas dun score at all... and worse... im still saying tt im semangat... yet im not producing any gd wrk-_-: seriously... how to pull up my GPA to above 4 tis sem???

hopefully after the break... i can do much better...

Finally a work tt Qing commented on-_-" it's only the shading tt he likes... i think the rest cmi-_-" and it's out of proportion

My most effort piece... i still think it's not there yet... looks fine here coz i adjusted my angle=p actually, the leg i drew is super short=p LOL!~

Another effort piece... looks like a wine glass... but anyway, it's suppose to be an hour glass, melting, and stopped...

muz do the write up...

when i write liao den put here ba

was thinking shd i place a base and a top so tt it looks like an hr glass more... izzit necessary??

Labels: adm, emo

...it's autumn time, 9:03 PM

Stress is desserts, spelled backwards

http://vi.sualize.us/view/3913a83c03db629c81892268821eb20e/

...it's autumn time, 12:24 AM

I slpt very early ystrday, in fact, i slpt the whole of ystrday... from the beginning of school, till the end.

Ystrday was the day tt i felt it the most. Though ive been very semangat (enthu) this sem, but the works tt ive produced this sem is so much poorer than last sem. I dun have the energy or vibe to produce good works. Lots of them thot so too... as in this sem, we dun have the kick to produce works.

Anyway, yah... the 4D tt ive handed in sux... as in for my part of the idea... and the proposal we've handed up is really short as compared to the rest, plus im doing it wif pravin... ah... feels shitty... but i aint redoing it... i'll be putting my effort on my next project...

hm... am i able to pull my grades to above 4 this sem? haha... we'll see we'll see=p

Woke up late this mrning... ystrday slpt at 11 and woke at 11 today... overslpt alot... feels lethargic, but cannot... so went off to IMM to get stuffs for my 3D proj (which they're doing in claz while im still slping and on my way=p)

Lunch time... thot of her... so asked her to go out for lunch, coz i guess she most prob wun be eating... so we met up at IMM in the end... after lunch, she wanted to go collect her hp, but i didnt bring my warranty card to repair mine... sianded...

She told me no need, they could check. So i tried my luck... and... i think somehow... she's still my lucky star... which isnt mine anyway...

today is the last day of the warranty... yah... so this is the last repair... no more=p

Went to cut my hair after tt, coz it's getting long and is really getting irritating tt it keeps going into my ear and eyes... Thot it'll be alot of changes, but well... not really... the feeling of this hairstyle isnt like the 1 b4 liao...

next mth change hairstyle?=p

anyway... haha... there's alot of things tt hasnt changed at all... not the surrounding, but me... if im not changing, nthing aint gonna change=p

haha... time=p

~USS prof was saying tt day...

The blogosphere has this phenomemon... almost everyone is indulging in self pity. What do u write in blogs? All the bad things tt happens to you? and what are you hoping for? someone who'll come by and say: no worries, it's okie....
So dont write about those stuffs, it's bad for you. makes u a lousy person.

Lol... this module has really made me seen more abot the society... and also more abot myself... being so easy to trust in matters=p...
and either way... i noe im lousy=p haha *self pity in going=p

Labels: emo

...it's autumn time, 4:23 PM

Happy Vday=)

If uve enjoyed the day, gd for u. If uve not enjoyed, hope next year will be better.

Oh well... this vday is slightly better den wat i thot will be... i thot i'll be super emo today... but okie...emo only, didnt reach the super part...

okie... last week... or tis week... is rather xiong for me... ive been staying in sch everyday!!! preparing vday event, chiong assignments, chiong wrk...

FOC is finally starting soon... but im still lacking of 2 main post to be filled up... really hope tt there'll be some people to be in... if not i think we'll be wrking our ass off...

den the vday event... hahaha... everyday do abit and wat resulted in is a very decorated adm cafe with the jamming and singing on thu=p but very sad... i didnt went for the vday event, but was trying to learn the dance for that day... biangz... learning to teach and learning for fun is so much different 1 loh...

was really stressed and cant get the steps right=p probably coz the prev nite i didnt slpt as well... gotta do decor for vday, editing for job, and 2D proposal for the next day... haha... it's da same thing that happened the 2 days b4 as well... and after the dance ystrday, lol... i stayed in sch till fri mrning-_-" yah... chionged my wrk... the video is finally done... which im really glad abot...

early in da mrning, left house and rushed home. showered and changed and rush off for my driving liao... haha... elena says it's v dangerous=p yah... but got instructor mah=p anyway tt day learned U-turn=p lol... i think quite screwed up=p kena alot of scolding frm instructor=p haha...

anyway, went back to office, submitted my work... and yeah.. stress free... decided to go home catch a nap 1st b4 going back to sch. as in sec sch, our sch finally finished rebuilding and we're having a bbq there... in the end? the next time slot i woke up is already 2am in da mrning-_-" i didnt hear my hp ring and those smses-_-" in the end i slpt back and woke up at errrr... 11 or 12?

haha... vday... didnt realise it came so fast... heng i say no to prav's trip to msia as well... i doubt i got the strength to have fun liao... simply dead tired... if w/o the slp... i think i shd be pigging still...=p

vday=p yah... didnt go as bad as i thot i might have been... maybe coz too tired liao... till duno it came... still no dates.. but watever... doesnt matter rite... all my efforts towards vday can be seen in da cafe...

well, this is the 1st vday tt i had done nthing at all=p used to make gifts for friends... but now i oso not doing anything liao... quite... emo? last vday i spent it wif 1 psn... waiting at the ramen shop... waiting for her to finish wrk and join me... lol... she's damn slow lah... in the end i waited by myself for quite long... she received her 1st bouquet of flowers in her life... while i received my 1st vday not alone.

hope that she have 1 happy day today... and to the rest of those attached... hope uve enjoyed da day. those singles... go emo lah=p LOL~ jkjk...

actually i wana say alot... but duno why... i seems to have nthing to say now... kkx... photo posting... easier to summarise...

*oh yah... tuan bai... sorry... ive been slping all the way... i oso forgot wat wrk i was doing the nite b4 liao... but den i not tt im simply too tired to wake up=p shit... lol... anyway, i think da rest had enjoyed themselves well wif tingyun's singing=p

after a few hrs of drawing... my mum thinks that im drawing orange-_-"

chinchilla!!!

Happy vday we've made it at the cafe

Balloons... 100 of them=p blow till out of breathe

It really looks like 1 dining place...everyone goes: who's getting married?

A mural that's a flower growing vine thingie... wana make it a post board for ppl to put their love on

Shengyi's origami rose

of coz not i tag=p elena did it

Actual day... so many ppl!!! and i wasnt there wif the singing and jamming=(
*but if im really there... i think i oso will be cui and slpt there=p

Betty bob

the totally cuied me after dance tt day

Learning some new moves

...it's autumn time, 12:36 PM

okie... this isnt really gd... for this whole week... i almost stayed in sch everyday and nvr went home for dinner lah! those vday events and foc etc etc is really alot of stuffs and i needa produce the wedding videos!!! and sch wrk as well... damn hectic.. dying... coz 3 days of not slping and plus today is 4 liao... i think my max is reaching soon...

now still chionging the wedding video, after tt go home rest a while den go driving liao...

hope next week wil be better for me

Labels: adm

...it's autumn time, 2:23 AM

I hate facebook...

it juz woke the deep feelings that ive tried to hide and ignore,
it presented me a fact that was hurting and deep.

it shows that she's happy and im not
it's still a great deal for me...

where i wasnt there b4... and he is there now...

shit... i hate facebook...

haix...

Labels: emo

...it's autumn time, 10:32 PM

Ive juz told a friend today, that sometimes in life, there'll be a certain period of time whereby your life would seem to be in a mess and you wont be able to grasp hold of anything you want to even if you've tried hard...

I suggested her to give up everything... or rather, let things go... and then slowly, bit by bit, get back everything. Hope it will work for her.

Somehow... things are the same for me... i duno when it started, it seems that after i tried to get hold of everything back, the mess will return once again... and yah... therefore i shall be letting go of it again... since it was made so clear to me... you need 2 hands to make a clap... if explaination doesnt work, then might as well not anymore...

Time... very funny... it's like i got plenty of it... still for more den 40yrs to go (*if nthing goes wrong) yet i dun have enuff time to slp and wrk. yet time is being put on a constraint so that assignments can be submitted. I know that im not a patient guy... i know that i like to see results fast... but sometimes... i wonder... where in the hell i got the patience of waiting? 7yrs? 3yrs? haha... funny... guess that u cant say that im patient nor impatient?=p

Another wierd thing tt was going on is this emo-ness in adm... or rather kind of down feeling... it's spreading somehow... after 1 had finally cheered up, the other will feel down... im trying not to be down most of the time now... coz i think if i am... i'll be pulling alot of ppl with me=p

Lunar eclipse today... but we didnt get to see anything at around 1030...maybe the efx is too small to be seen le ba... go home... i tried to look at the moon again, den realised that i cant... ive moved my bed (to a v bad position that alot of ppl think, which is da leg facing the window... hm... but i thot is the head cannot face window? anyway...) and i cant see the moon and stars i used to be able to when i slp... pity... but nvm... there'll be an eclipse here and there, once in a while... it's not a must to see, but a gd to have...

Since there's alot of sudden committments... therefore i shall be picking things up slowly again... abit worried for FOC now... confidence level? not as high now... coz the comm members, i dun even noe who are they, nvr wrked wif them b4, duno how are they like... and the more important point... they seems to be v zai-_-" i wonder will i be able to lead well...

haha... this semester shall be about believe...

Believe in time...
Believe in myself...
Believe that i can accomplish things...
Believe that my studies will go well...

=)

Labels: adm, emo

...it's autumn time, 1:55 AM

omg... this is my aim for this year after ive finished my driving... damn cool lah=p

quite ex though=p

$599 sing dollars=p

...it's autumn time, 6:21 PM

repost... those fiery shots...

It's me,

With spwushu

At SP

Labels: spwushu

...it's autumn time, 4:41 PM

It's abit too sudden... when the committments tt im having juz tripled itself within this week!

kkx... new committments i have now
1) Im now the co-choreographer over the sch's dance club...
but seriously, i dun choreograph lah... i juz learn frm the instructor (melvin, he's oso a student of adm, juz tt he's a dance instructor as well) den when he's not free, den i'll be at least there to help or something like tt...

2) On the next day, ive confirmed on the chairperson of FOC (aka, free of charge-_-" no lah... freshman orientation camp) yah... so it's going to be a super big commitment now... hope it'll be a success.. nono... coz it confirm have to be a success ah... if not how can? juz hope tt im going to do a gd job den...

3) Ive started on my 1st driving lesson... but den... i gotta finish lessons asap... coz my final theory is going to expire in april-_-" which means after tt i gotta retake final theory again... dun wana do so... so better chiong driving

4) Chiong driving means wat? means tt i gotta chiong wrk as well to pay off my driving...

stress ah... still got sch wrk... ---" where's herrrrrrrrrrr-_-' haix... emo...

Went to sp today... she's having pimples now... can noe tt her stress had increased since she left me... actually.... i think it's going to be a yr soon already? ive lost count of the mths... but it feels like it's juz ystrday... i was sitting there at the pingpong table, looking at her... and the feeling of wana be hugged is there at tt moment... i wished tt i could be hugged by her once more...

lucky enough, ive bought a few comics to get myself concentrating on them... $24 well spent... but watever happened next is like purposely will have memories 1...-_-" we went to prata shop at 1st... but den no space... so went over to west coast park macdonald... remembered tt it's only our 1st few mths... 16th sept to be exact... we celebrated jul's bday there... ive waited for her at home, coz she'll be finishing her wushu camp and come over to my house to shower and go to cele jul's bday... little did she noe tt ive baked a heart shape cake for her... and the prgrms ive lined up for her... both days... we enjoyed... it's sweet.. juz like the cake...

well... gotta concentrate on wrk... alot of things to do... wish tt someone can be beside me sharing my stress...

Labels: adm, emo

...it's autumn time, 1:51 AM

Okie... wat happens when u cycled too much and carry a laptop wif u everyday?

nthing... juz tt my knee qbit cui now... will pain when cycle... think too much friction liao... shall stop cycling for the moment..

Labels: adm

...it's autumn time, 10:00 AM

Why does some people able to give up on love so easily? while it seems to keep coming back to me again and again?

It seems easy to give up for them... is tt really tt they're tt heartless?
Well... i noe ive progressed... but i noe tt i cant cheat everyone but not myself... some part of me is still wif her...

Labels: emo

...it's autumn time, 3:36 AM

Juz a small project ive did last week... this week... it's going to be very much more chim... i duno wat to do now...

Anyway, this is a killer whale, project is making a human/animal resemblance from found junks...

so we went to sungei road flea market to do some shopping and got our junk...
ive bought a fan blade and a bike helmet... and wala... there u go... my whale=p

looks better den this?

ive made the adjusments=p

Labels: adm

...it's autumn time, 3:32 AM

1985: Economy Crisis
1997: Economy Crisis
2009: Economy Crisis

All happened in the year of Ox...

Haix... We're really some suay kah-_-"

...it's autumn time, 10:09 PM

Anna said ystrday...

Even when we have a lot of friends, there'll still be times whereby we couldnt find anyone out and be alone by ourselves... i couldnt agree more...

Those are the days where we will be staying at home and the feeling came in...

Well... hopes are there for quite a few out there... so hope tt those hopes for u arent false hope and get urself some happy ending beginning.

Labels: emo

...it's autumn time, 2:11 PM

So it's a small small world...

Jasmine, my wushu friend... knows Weiyang, who's the bf of my friend.

And today... juz got to noe, that another friend of mine frm the same clique, actually noes the brother of my sec sch friend!

lol... quite a surprise...

She says she is going for a gathering at yew tee, den i was like... haha... mine oso tt area... den duno wat we talk abot, den we say maybe same gathering but den her host is a guy, mine is a girl... den i started to ponder... izzit her bro? and so under curiosity, i msged my friend, but nvr reply.

Further asking each other questions... like wat's the guy's name, got dog anot etc etc... den the surname... den it's like>>> da same-_-" lol... kkx.. in the end, she msged the guy and the guy replied... and bingo! yah... so qiao, yuan lai we noe the same family... lol...

it's a v v small world... yet the psn who shd be wif me wasnt there at all...

kkx... lots of homework coming... gonna rock tonite again... chiong ah... not clubbing but assignment=p but i go nap 1st=p
lol

...it's autumn time, 12:06 AM

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