Everyday is a sunny day!

i have to conclude once again... that finding help is FREAKING HARD-_-'

This is the 2nd time in this year i felt like this already...

Eyebrow trimming model... i duno wat's so hard and so wierd abot it sometimes especially i finding girls to help me with eyebrow trimming and not guy...-_-'

cant believed i actually asked 20over ppl and i can get no one-_-" but i oso cant fault them for not helping... arghz... feeling damn sianz now... i need a female model!

Why issit im always helping when i need help yet i cant find any? so sad...

Maybe i really shd learn frm oliver... juz go street and find-_-

...it's autumn time, 10:05 PM

630am... the night of slp is uncomfortable.. i woke thrice with the 3rd time i cant take it anymore and went for medication...
hate the feeling of aching all over, symptoms of having fever and yet im not having a fever...

cant fall back into slp after medication and tt's why im here... later have to accompany dad to hospital... maybe he can make it more den i do now...

...it's autumn time, 6:33 AM

Went out for the 3rd time to shop today i think... it's so damn hard to find a formal shirt tt fits actually...

these few days of shopping let me realised tt i really sucked at buying clothes=p lol... coz i cant see for myself and needed comments frm others... even they chose for me=p lol... well... if u cant even decide for stuffs like clothes, wat say ur own future? lol...

Learnt afew stuffs from buying formal wear... ive got a suit, tt fits me juz nice, cutting showed tt im really thin, yet i can look gd. LOL... den got a leather shoes. very nice, long pointy shoes=p lol... i used to get those round round 1... now i realise how ugly it actually looks... like ronald macdonald like tt... got a shirt... which is slim fit... last time i juz buy straight cut, which look so awesomely big-_-" at least now i know i really muz get the right size, and even length to look proper. biagnz... i can imagine i gong i look last time with the baggy formal shirt during FYP. Got a belt, chosen by Len and my socks by Laiyin... gotta thanks Yanwei and Oliver too for spending the time to shop the stuffs with me...

now... come to think of it... really abit kua zhang... coz for 1 seminar... im wearing a WHOLE new set of clothing there! top to toe-_-" den Laiyin suggested me, wana get new underwear or not-_-"

anyway, quite a tiring day today... alot of sudden things happened *which includes my mum calling me when im trying clothes and i keep wanting to end e call and she keep asking me why am i trying clothes (when im halfway changing-_-... i juz hung her in the end) den when i called back later... she thot she was calling my sis-_-""""

but anyway all not the point until the night falls... first time stepping into marina sands! SUGOI! it's bigggggggg... big till i really have to say its quite a waste of space=p lol... but the space is so wide that u really have a different experience from the malls of the usual singapore... if u haven been there, go take a look... but dun hope for anything gd... coz most of the place are not done up yet... and very dusty. nthing much to see actually... lol...

Met up with 2of the china distributors we've met earlier at noon... we had quite a long chat.. 2hrs? haha... learnt afew points from her...

She kept looking at me when she's talking abot this particular point... almost telling me, u must do this=p lol... she was saying when you're doing this business, it's really good to bring your partner in as well. Don't keep chionging by urself and forget about ur love life... lol... she's aiming at me being single=p lol...

yah indeed... if someone is with you supporting you and yet also having the same goal with you, isnt it better? not only that, you both can share the fruits of labour as well!...

Im quite impressed with her... why? coz she came over to singapore herself, she's only 30+, yet facing us, all strangers, she can talk as if we're old buddies... omg... damn friendly lah! in front of her, i can almost feel as if i can speak to her w/o any barrier. And i know i can speak like her too! what's even worst is that i also know that i can make people speak without barrier as well... but it's usually when people start talking to me den i felt tt way... why cant i be the one to initiates?

something really needa learn from... her dareness to talk to strangers... coz it's really impressive and awesome when she speaks. which what the others say, they have 大将之风. they have the aura that we dun have. They have the Want that we dont have. They do things very fast yet we are that slow... which spurs me into thinking... yah... if i want... i can go that fast as well?

...it's autumn time, 2:45 AM

Few weeks ago... i blogspot was gone coz of a serious mistake i made... deleting my gmail account.

And now getting it back is almost miraculous to me... DAMN HAPPY!

coz alot of memories inside here.. oceancap.blogspot.com...

4 years of blogging, and secret blogs... My sweetest, happiest and saddest moments are all recorded inside here... lots of memories...

gotta admit tt im very sentimental... haha, too sentimental for a guy...
and some recent stuffs made me felt quite low too...
den Gordon adviced me without probing further on matters...

He said that it's okie to be low... but get back up soon, coz you'll miss so much when you're that low... you'll miss so much laughter and fun...

Yeah... indeed... though it's not the 1st time i hear this advice... but it's actually the 1st time i can DO IT. Haha... kind of ironic... it's the past few experience that trained me up to this day... where i can pick up mnyself so much faster...

compared to that 3 years after rejected, that 1 year after break up, that 3months to now... juz a slp, juz a day or 2, juz a motivation... im back here again...
haha... im still sentimental... but i hope that i wun emo for too long again... coz afterall... it's still quite painful for me to take=p...

well... it's time to slp... i think i have too much toxic in me and making me feel so lethargic... time to charge up again and Zen is preparing to have a new sem and new goals to acheive=)

...it's autumn time, 3:39 AM

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