Everyday is a sunny day!

suddenly i felt tt there's alot of stars passing my life... weijian from project superstars, selena from i not stupid 1... the female child actor for Home run was frm my primary sch, shinsian oso quite famous i guess... den recently there's dawn yeo in the upcoming drama series Xing Shan Shan...

wah... all made it big, and pursued their dreams... and me?.... i talked abot it... but seems like no action?...

i noe im not the cut that can make it big... so i can only keep it as my dream ba...

at least i noe tt i dreamt to be a big director in singapore since secondary, and it has always been like tis... my 1st dream is to be a director... and my last would be 1 too:)

anyway, the industry is too harsh for me to get there... muz earn to support family, no choice, think i an only be part time director?... hopefully... NS faster finish, den i can gather my kah kees and start our filming career:)

may i reach my dreams too:) and may u too:)

...it's autumn time, 12:46 AM

looking back to vday, it's already 2 weeks ago le, time really flies... ive been in army for abot half a year liao, & my course is going to start next week... finally... but the bad thing ive juz found out is tt unit life is really too slack, esp when im not in course and no man to take... ive weaken, think now i got tummy liao;p lol... eat too much but nvr exercise... hahahah...

last week went out wif amanda and waiteng for a movie, after tt we went shopping @ taka. There, they asked me, why i like her? & tt's the qn ive always asked myself too... to say the truth, i couldnt answer tt myself... dun i feel it tt way coz i dun understand her well? i admit... & i admit tt i didnt put in much effort to find out either.

it's not until recent mths den i noe her likes & dislikes... she dun like bears as presents... and my 1st bda gift for her?... a me-to-you bear.. -_-"

Actually, why do i love shinsian? juliana?... i dun really noe tt either...
coz they're cute?(tt's wat i find in common in the 3 of them...)
i dun think i like jul coz of her "craziness", i like shinsian coz she dance well, i like her coz she's kind?...

If these are the reasons to why i like them, wat's the difference from writing a composition? really those are juz parts of why i like them... there's something abot why im attracted to them... this something im attracted to, is something tt im unable to describe in words, or shd i say i dun even noe wat it is... and so, i call tis the x factor... a feeling that is strong and attracting you, but yet u duno wat it is, and cant decribe...

Those couples who are in love, do you feel it tis way too? you like all his/her qualities... but, there's one thing you missed out, coz u cant describe it in words?...

~an effort not much out in, a relation not much grown, a sadness wun last long~

...it's autumn time, 2:45 AM

愿意等待，
固然可以证明爱情里的一份痴情。
但有限的人生里，
无法容许无限的等待。
永远只不过是两颗心之间愿意守候的距离。

...it's autumn time, 7:52 PM

it's a sian vday... the sianest 1...

...it's autumn time, 7:56 PM

... ... ... ... ...

ive almost made a big mistake

ive found out something new

im digging a super deep hole in the ground

i filled up the bottle with my thoughts and love

i seal it up which will only open up a thousand years later

i put the bottle in the hole

i pushed the soil into the hole with my hands

i covered it up and gave a few tap and left the place

ive buried my heart deep in the ground, as promised when it happens...

may a tear be all i need to leave tis place...

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an ORD quote... xin niang jie hun le, ke shi xin lang bu shi wo

...it's autumn time, 2:21 AM

haha... juz now i was watching some videos in my hard disk and im laughing away... i saw the NKF video where im on tv, the Hao yi show... lol... see i oso wana laugh out loud... duno why, juz very interesting, glad tt last time i joined such events, though abit paiseh, but got memories special to me:)

NKF tt day i oso got to noe 1 more friend, and that's rouhui which later i helped her alot on watching those videos i burnt for her... haha...

man... tt year was seriously full of interesting event and it's such a bz year, i oso acted part time in some drama series... great experience:)

there's an upcoming competition in NTU, feel like joining, but duno got time to train anot... hopefully i can join ba... we'll see den, see can get some medals back anot:p hehe... memories are nice:) no matter gd or bad:) start making memories today:)

...it's autumn time, 1:06 AM

brother brother, if u type wrongly, it'll become a bother...

yupz, those who are the elder ones in the family will noe wat i mean... sometimes, our younger siblings will think tt we're bothering them and we're always in their way when they wana do something... some might even regard us as "enemy"...-_-"

when she first born (my sis) im the 1 who cared for her most, and really love her alot, and teng(2) her, until she grows up lah... den she very naughty liao... so lesser attention i put on her.

den now, at the age of 14, she's blaming her parents of being bias... to me...

when we moved house, i got to choose my room, i got new furniture, they bought things for me, i got freedom etc etc...

-_-" i can only say that my sis really has so much to go to mature... my room wasnt really chosed, simply it's bigger by tt corridor, so i got it, and my furniture? it's a confirm tt we needa get a set, coz we got 1 more room, and since my aunty was staying in her room, she cant get new beds, but the rest are new!... and my mine set was really cheap, coz i have to save for my parents, she couldnt see tis... bought things for me? harlow, it's my pocket money tt ive saved.... the difference is, she cant save, so she need my mum to help her do tt... and freedom? duh, im equally controlled by my parents too leh... i latest is 7 pm reach home, and she? 9pm is her normal time and she's studying so near!...

so damn sadded... her teacher told my parents abot tis (her teacher noes her blog) and really im so sadded that she is so xiao xin yan... my parents get her things tt i myself dream of having oso cant get... and all she gotta do is, "i try my best liao"... she got her mp3 player, she got her quite useless video cam, she got her gameboy... and guess wat? all haven use 1 yr den spoil liao...-_-" and her hp bill???? it's freaking $100+ per mth... not incl telephone bills, she uses away 3/4 of the talking time!... every nite talk on telephone wif lights and radio on, den radio sleep le nvr switch off etc etc... concerns to her = nagging, asking her results = more nagging, wana go out = seriously more nagging... duh... she's a female, asking her going out to where isnt too much rite? and time?... nvm abot time, coz it's nvr accurate, she can say i going frm sch now and reached home freaking 2 hrs later when she only needs a 20min walk...

she's the kind ear very soft 1... meaning ppl say anything she juz takes it w/o filtering... so all the gd ppl become the bad, and the bad? became the gd... me, parents, her bball teacher, all became bad... and her friends?... *** only some of her friends is bad...

i oso duno wat to do liao lah... oso gave up quite long ago... guess tt she's super happy ever since the day i go ns, coz nobody will "fan" her liao mah... haix... when will she starts thinking for others instead of herself?...

...it's autumn time, 3:03 PM

hm... need help here... do you all prefer the template last time i have or tis 1? (i dun mean the deisgn, i mean the layout)...

coz feel like tagboard very sianz like tt... izzit not ez to access?

...it's autumn time, 6:57 PM

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