Saturday, March 31, 2007
Okie... a slight update of today b4 going to backdate blogging again:pHm... today im still sick-_-" so to date, it's around 1week liao... to be exact, 1 week 1 day:p
Mrning wake up early early go outfield for exercise... and coz im sick, they let me be the ammo ic:p wahahha... gdgd... nthing to do for the whole day oso:p loL~
After that i coughed again, coz super dusty, heng it rained, so not tt bad... but mosquitoes came, so started burning the coil... and the smoke... lol~ you shd noe wat happen next...
Booked out quite late today, coz the gate to exit the field is closed! so we took 1 big detour... and reach back camp very late...
Anyway, today i had this thot, i might wana extend my ORD date for 6mths... tt means 'signing on' for 6 mths... coz i still haven found a damn job till now! shit... but if extend 6 mths oso not bad... coz is regular pay... so i shd be getting pretty pumped up:p
Went wushu, thot can train, who noes... yuan lai they got rehearsal for competition today... nvrtheless, i take the opportunity to do some stunts today, to try out wat i can do for performance...
* Some praises for the juniors... You all did well ya! for Jitiquan and Jitidao... haha... really.. it's so so so so SO much better... last time see you all do like wana kill you all like tt... not a single bit of 'tidiness' or 'qi-ness' in the whole routine... today i see a very different show:) but dun get too high! still got alot of room for improvement:)
okie, so i did my stuffs... wah... sweat drop... i really scared that i lost all those skills liao... heng xuan feng all these still can do... is last week off form... so cant do:p phew.... hahha... so, my eagle claw will cong jian guang ming again:p hahha... eugene coach will help me in the routine, so not much worry.. only to worry my own abilities nia...
Den when everything end, kimyong approached me... to join the Jitigun... and i very shuang kuai den agree liao-_-" too high today, cannot think-_-" anyway oso say okie lioa... so juz do it ba... hope i can help in some way too... and hope i wun get too emotional in any case either...
hm... wat else... oh yah... the performance is in june, den in late oct there's nationals.... huifang wana organise an alumni grp performance... hm.... im in support wif her, coz it's fun! and oso, we can brush up or maintain our skills... if possible, i hope that we can show the juniors something too:) coz it'll be all organise by alumnis only... even the routines...
so any alumnis reading my blog? are you interested in performing? think we shd be having both individuals and group event in the performance... anyone interested can find me or huifang or any other spwushu regulars ya!:)
...it's autumn time, 3:10 AM
Thursday, March 29, 2007
友谊是要用心去经营的对，友谊是要经营的，It needs effort to maintain.
知我者都会知道友谊对我有多重要，也会知道我会为朋友付出多少。可是最近朋友的疏离让我想起了，也知觉了，我已没有在经营这些关系。
经营友谊是份艰辛的任务。不只是关心及言语，心理与行动上也要有些表现，偶尔谈天，偶尔聚会，了解彼此的境况，分担你我的喜怒哀乐。。。这样，友谊，才能长存。
以往，我记得我一直会搞聚会，时不时找他们谈天，偶尔出门逛逛，去看电影，去圣淘沙玩一整日，日子过得那么精彩，有趣。。。
渐渐的，大家都在忙了，而我，也开始累了，懒了。。。我没有约他们，聊天也少了。。。其实，我什么也没做了。。。只是那样望着手机，希望它会响起，会有人找我出门罢了。
我累了，真的累了。。。我只想有个人来照顾我。。。有个人在我身旁罢了。。。应该轮到别人为我做这些事了吧？
可是去了他们所搞的聚会的时候，我却感到惭愧了。吵闹的我却只静静的愣在一旁，无精打采，怎么也提不起劲儿。有份莫名的伤感缠绕着我，我却无精，无力去反驳，无法逃脱。。。我真的累了。
最近我又病了，电脑也坏了，一切更明显了。。。
病了，希望有个人关心，有个人照顾，才赫然发现，朋友远了，身旁一个人也没有，连父母都不在，剩的最后还是只有我自己。
科技使人懒惰。电脑坏了，什么也做不了，整个人像电脑一样，瘫痪了。现在不能读网日，连找个说话的对象也没了。后来的今日，又有一人不写网日了。想知道他们的境况更难了。
我觉得，我消沉了许多许多。。。像是几年前那样。。。一切在历史从演吗？
但谢谢你们，在我消声亦即时还记得我。。。谢谢没忘了我。时间，给我点时间吧。我休息好了，就回来了。因为，我，始终不想失去你们。。。
...it's autumn time, 3:01 PM
IM BACK!!!!!!! but not for long... coz im runnning on a spoiled hard disk... so anytime my com will be down again... anyway, 废话少说... let's get to the back dating..... *** super long, and got pics haven upload... when com abit more stable le den i put in the pic...3rd Mar ~ Janet's wedding, Grad Nite, Eskibar
Janet's wedding
So ystrday's training ended quite late, go home immediately go to slp lioa, coz next day have to wake up early to attend the tea ceramony. So we went to Janet's house and waited for the couple to come... they came quite late, but our relatives were even later-_-" quite funny... dun seem very 're nao'... i wonder why, only to realise that actually alot of them wasnt present too... why huh????
Saw this 'Love Test' thing on the table, muz be meant for the groom in the mrning... Only got 1 comment for it, & tt's OUCH!~:p
Jul sure to love this... lol~
We was late, so we took cab down to Oriental Hotel for the church wedding. There goes the angbao money from the tea ceramony:p haha...
Wow!!! There's a freaking lot of ppl lah!... all their church friends i guess, at least most of them are... i think there shd be at least 500 ppl there... coz the hall very squeezy.... i think they really spent alot on this...
The setting is very nicely done up, hm... nono... i shd say simple yet sweet:) ambience oso very nice:) but my camera not doing me proud, couldnt take a gd photo wif the lighting that is dark and the place is big. We got tis almond candy and there's oso a prgrm list, wif 3 song lyric... 1st time attending church wedding, though not in church, but still excited:p
Finally, the recessional march, the bride entered the hall with her dad, she had her friends in front of her throwing flower petals... with the add on of smoothing music, and the dry ice, wooooo.... it's the kind of wedding i would like mine to have too. Can see the groom very kan chiong oso:p lol...
Dad hands over her daughter to the groom and left. And you thot they'll start the exchanging of ring already? Nah.... The pastor got alot to say, some i agrees, some i dun, but doesnt matter, coz it's meant for the couple infront:p i forgot which goes 1st le, but she be the ring exchange 1st.
...... (i duno wat's the exact paragraph) "I Do", "I Do", "I now pronounce you, Husband & Wife, you may now kiss the bride" ~ Woot!~ * claps!Den there's the singing session, which all the songs i duno:p so i stand there and listen only... den my sis sang...
After that is another ceramony, something abot suffer wat the god suffered b4?... dun quite get it but anyway i think is juz eating a bread and a '交杯酒'. Den it's the Unity Candle. There's 2 smaller candles by the side, each representing themselves and the bigger candle in the middle, representing the family they're forming. They'll hold up their own candle and lit up the bigger candle together. It's to symbolise 2 individuals forming into 1 family. Quite nice, i mean the symbolising thingie:p
The pastor got everyone's attention & request everyone to give their blessing and he gave his blessings to the newly wed. Den it ended with a lunch buffet. Yummie... but i couldnt stay for long, after lunch we left le, to join GRAD NITE '07!~
Grad Nite 07
Was late for grad nite of coz, and i missed the most fun part!!! The powerpoint presentation!! Ok lah, at least i nvr missed the last video... which i wasnt very happy abot... haix... there's 1 particular that i keep hiding, when huifang asked me to send her photos i oso dun wana send tt photo, coz i dun wana see it on grad nite... oso dun wan 'her' to see oso... in the end it appeared in boon's video-_-" dampened my mood...
After that they have games for the grads... and it started to get boring for us and we left the hall and chatted outside since there's nthing for us to do either. Den 'she' walked past me, or us, like very attitude like tt:( wat to do? ignore loh... Anyway, heard that she cried that day... for wat reason? i duno... nvm...
Their dinner buffet starts and i didnt stayed long, coz got a wedding dinner to rush to:p
Janet's wedding
Haha... nvr realised that im the 'official' photographer sia! i thot there'll be pros there to help, den im the subsidiary 1... but im the only 1 in the end... lucky the camera damn gd, anyhow take oso nice:p
i nvr switch on the flash and alot of ppl say i lousy:( purposely 1 leh.... w/o flash really nicer mah!... but later part i lazy to explain liao... so i juz let them be loh:( Nvr ate alot either, coz the lunch was a late lunch... i's still inside my stomach:p
Eskibar
The dinner end le, went to eskibar and joined the rest there, but when i reached, most of them are leaving-_-" catch last train i heard, then some went to coffeebean...
It's quite fun at eski, very cold, i love it:p but i dun dare to drink tt day, coz 心情不好, 1 mouthful enuff to make me drunk liao... tried b4 so wun try again:p...
Ordered cocktail den we juz chatted... great dun:p den we kept saying abot 3 yrs later stuff... hahha... jiao will be my wife and duno wat... den leslie will hold his wedding together wif mine... den i duno how it gets liao, den got 5 couples holding together:p but only 2 groom 3 bride:p lol!~ leslie and jul, leslie and jiao, me and jiao, me and huiying, me and mingxian... lol!~ wth...:p It's getting very late liao, took cab home & i nvr spend a min longer to get into my bed... coz it'll be a very early mrning for me tml...
4th Mar ~ Static Display
Yawnz...Not too much slp i had... Wore smart 4 to suntec for static display... 1st time going... heard that it's lots of fun... and... IT IS FUN!!!... hahha...
Skip away all the boring art, i need to wear ghillie suit, 'modeling' around:p Den we acted like we're manequins... den scare ppl!!!lol... very fun lah!... i saw ppl got shocked till they jumped :p lol!~ but i htink zihui is da best lia... got hot babes take photo wif him loh! i only got kids:p hahah:p
[Kids wif the Swamp Thing Pic]
Some kids are really afraid of 'me'.... but some very daring too:)
Den there's 1 sec sch gal wana take photo wif 'me'... she wana come close but dun dare like tt... so i stand closer loh, den she scared... lol!~ wana laugh out lioa:p the whole impression of us got so scary meh??? hahha... probably... coz we seriously looks like The Swamp Thing from outside...
After taking liao she not satisfied, coz her friend took halfbody instead of full body... wana take wif her again but i was quickly 'occupied' by others laio:p hahha... too bad for her den:p
Play til i dun wana leave:p haha... but still have to book in tt nite... so go home pack bag and eat dinner instead... Fun day it was:)
7th Mar ~ Haijiao Basic Theory Test
Juz like the title suggest, Jiao took her theory test today:p 1 time pass:p but i think she's better, coz she got more tricky qns den mine... i think mine dun have any... quite straightforward. Lol... Now i can suan Zihui more liao:p lol...evilzzzzz... even Sum wana take theory test now, juz to suan him:p
Now going to take advance theory liao... see the book so thick i oso sianz... But duno will i be the 1st to get license anot... coz i dun even have enuff $$ for the practical lessons:p!!
8th - 9th Mar ~ '300' + Random
Actually wana tell you the review abot 300 de... but by the time i can blog, & by the time youve read my entry, i think the show already stop screening for a week liao? lol... anyway, it's a very gd show... 1 of those movies that i would say, worth my $9.50. If youve missed it, catch it on DVD, it's AWESOME!~
You noe, sometimes saving up $$ is a chore... Those who cant save need help of 3rd party to keep their money... im the 1 who can save, for the spending purpose:p lol!~ recently i satrted tis practice on saving up all the $1 coins... & when i count today, i was quite shocked... it's around $50+ in around 1 mth... surprised coz i thot it would be lesser... 想不到...
Sekit sekit, lama lama, jadi bukit!!!... i think tis malay phrase juz works on this... If you wana start saving abit more, you can try tis... it's quite effective ya noe? Leslie saves up all the coins.... hahha... maybe can start trying saving all the notes? :p
13th Mar ~ Ivan's Return
Ivan is finally back frm his trip in US... heard tt it was pretty fun for him, & he oso got us some souvenirs... i got tis keychain from Disneyland, like it very much, coz its very nice!~ dun u think so? & he oso got me a m&ms pokercard oo:) thx ya!
16th Mar ~ Adidas gathering
Woot!~ The long awaited gathering!~ hahha... i think it's almost 4mths since i last seen them? which is on my bday... really happy to see them... But it seems there's a distance btwn me and them le... im so quiet... or is it im simply tired?
The steamboat was really filling as usual but i missed the best part! IceEeEee CreamMmmm...:( saded... i think most of the time im juz sitting there eating... listening to them talking abot things i duno...:p think huiqi kept entertaining me ba... coz i juz sit beside her:p den 偶尔engage in the ORD conversation.
After that is a series of photo taking session... & i think huiqi wana do a collage or wat, den started squeezing at 1 corner of the house to take photo liao... it's aroudn tis time den i realised qi patched up le, and anna got attached! wah... tt's quite 'shocking' news to me.. proves that i really disconnected till far far frm them le... & it's only now den i realise there are no steads around today:p duno where their guys 'die' to le... :p
Now im officially the only single liao:p hahha... kk... & you thot im going to say abot those sad stuff abot being single liao rite?... Nah.. it's still sad stuff... but it's abot friends tis time...
Im going to blog this in chinese.. you noe wat tis means? i think it means that it's important to me & ive gone thru lots of thots abot it... tt's usually the case when i blogs in chinese isnt it?
Anyway, juz wana say, Adidas is a funny grp of friends that i have... i got to clique wif this grp in a very funny way...
I noe Waiteng, and i gave her 2 tix to the NKF performance im at that time, den she brought Rouhui along... After the show, i sent them the photos and videos i had and had some conversation wif Rouhui to help her watch those videos. After a period of time I forgot for wat reason, thnk is collect a bday gift frm waiteng? Den i got to noe Anna... Or is it abot the chalet 1st? They're havgin a chalet & calle dme along... Shd be Rouhui & Waiteng's bday...Anna, Huiqi and Amanda den got to noe me...coz i was practically eating only the tuna sandwich:p haha... coz i shy ma... i noe nobody else there except waiteng and rouhui:p Den actually nvr stay overnite 1... but in the end stayed on... Den in future, i was invited to their gatherings at Sentosa and KTVs... & im wondering now why did i go? coz of someone? forgot le... But i was included in their gatherings and soon, i became one of them le... haha... 和奇妙对吗？... hmmm... maybe u dun feel so, but i felt quite 神奇 to have them... like no link at all oso can get together:p & they didnt forget me:)
17th Mar ~ Avoiding her
Me and Janice enemy? Nono... we're not... we're juz 2 parallel lines that dun meets...
We're juz strangesr who dun seems to noe each other... she's not doing anything to me, neither do i... that was wat i told gary when he thot we're enemy like tt time... Nah... we're not... so its that a gd news or bad?
It's juz that there's somethings i dun wana be reminded of again & again... but he keeps mentioning her name, i dun even noe when did he got so close to her... but anyway, everytime her name being mentioned, every single memory came each time... Ive got so irritated that i dun wan him to mention her name in front of me...
I think it's today's weather that made me acted wierd, so hot, makes me felt so troubled... Today, the 'i dun wana see Janice' feeling very strong. Strong to the point that when she's walking towards me den i turn back & walked the other way.
I also duno why i dun wana hear/see her so much today... i dun understand. She's not doing aything that would affect me or wat... but everytime i hear/see her, i still felt so much affected! Especially today when gary kept talking abot her... going to her work place to disturb her, sms her, calling her, go eskibar etc etc... Those memories came back & i almost felt jealous!! Actually, I DID!!
i juz wana forget, juz dun wish to touch some of those memories... at least not now... coz they're still considered hurtful sometimes...
~ Dun tell me i need another 3 yrs to be fine again... pls keep my heart & mind in peace, serenity and transquility...
Did gary asked whether we could be friends again? i guess, the answer would be pretty much obvious... let time do the talking... i guess that would be her reply too...
24th Mar ~ Rane's bday
Hm.... went rane's bday though im sick today.... but anyway, she booked a ballroom!!! at cineleisure... wat sia!... very grand... lol~ think she spent near a thou for this party bash...
i go there, heng got ting yun wif me... if not i super lonely...
this is wat me and gary got for her... hello kitty mahjong set... haha... think they'll have a hard time playing tis set.... lol~ got the wrong 1 for her:p lol~ coz this set no Shuo or Wan or Tong... all is these pictures...
...it's autumn time, 12:46 PM
Saturday, March 17, 2007
MY COM IS DOWN AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!! as usual...:( think my 1st pay shall aim on a new computer liao... tis com is giving too much prob sometimes...anyway, tis time got a better help on fixing com liao, ivan the com nerd:p hahaha... okie lah... im blogging on his laptop... missing the time to meet leslie they all go blading:p hopefully he can fix my hard disk....
1 week no computer to use is really cannot make it... i guess com is really part of my life lioa... cant blog, cant listen to music, cant watch anime, cant chat, cant tis cant tt:( wah... xiong...
Okie... i it's been soooooooooo long liao... but i'll still back date blog it...
2nd Mar (fri)~ Basic Theory Test
Yeah... abit kan cheong abot whether im going to pass anot, coz tt zihui duno fail how many times... abit scared sia... got so hard meh??? that was what i thot... but in the end? i completed it in 15mins i think... and i PASSED!!! wahahhaha... the ah neh beside me like very stunned like tt...coz im the 2nd to complete... actually is 1st but i thot i so fast, so i slow down (got 1 hr to do leh) ... but den got 1 psn go off b4 me liao... so i think shd be okie, den i 2nd to go:p
hahhha... advance theory on the 24th april... 1 time pass okie? hahhaa...
After my theory test i went to meet aunty, pass her the free tix for the sentosa sky tower.... the other pair i gave to rouhui liao... den she treated me MOS burger for passing the theory test and oso giving her the free tix:p hahha no bad yah:p
But she very suay like tt, hold the cup den e cup drop... lol~ den her pouch and pants got wet:p too bad not transparent?:p After meal went shopping for a new pouch wif her, den go home lioa....
Hiak hiak hiak.... muz suan zihui liao....
...it's autumn time, 1:35 PM
Sunday, March 11, 2007
Wah... seriously... i nvr blog den nvr blog... once start blogging like non-stop... lol~Okie... the arrival of the new family members... the chinchillas is here!!! hahaha...
Cant take any photo of it yet... coz muz let them get use to the new environment 1st... den gotta clean the cage etc... the previous owner like only change the bedding frequently but nvr clean the cage 1 leh... but nevertheless, can see they very 依依不舍... but they're going overseas liao... so they're letting them away...
anyway, the male chin is named Pooh Bear, and the female Sleepy... i can see why... come my house only slp... lol~... dun intend to change the name... doesnt really matter either... juz very excited now got them liao:p hehehhe.... let me see... since sec 2... that means 6yrs? or maybe 7... hahhaa... pet dream came trueeeeee.... hahha.. remembered tt time when chins juz came out in singapore market im so enthu abot it den keep telling peishan and siaohui they all....
but tt time my aim is like tt... hamsters> guinea pig> rabbit> chinchilla >dog... haha... tt's wat i want to have hahhaa... but in the end now i skipped guinea pig and rabbit:p haha....
anyway... i'll update it later when ive settled everything...
high expense mth...:p
...it's autumn time, 1:06 PM
10th Mar ~ Qinhao's Bday @ DBL OBloody Red Fox's bday!...
Went out in da mrning wif gary 1st... he went to buy 2nd hand hp, $750.... wah... he freaking rich after he sign on hoh? keep spending only, duno how to save... Friends of his, please everyday nag him to save... see him spend like tt oso very jialat...
Den we went to ikea b4 going chinatown point to search for the hello kitty mahjong... in the end it's out of stock:( wasted trip... but nvm... at least now online have... but i duno how to bid!!!... lol~ trial and error loh...
Den he wana go IT fair 1 de... but when we alighted at cityhall, walked the citylink, we decided to throw tt idea away... coz freaking lot of ppl! I can imagine the IT fair would be like Chinatown during new year... lol~
After that we nvr stayed on for long b4 going home... i wana rest for later's party and gary went to meet his friends...
Meet up wif lihong, yewming, kahboon and weibin at PS 1st... actually was quite shocked... coz lihong came!? haha... he's wearing blue polo t only.... very out loh... den i suggested of giving him a make over... den we went shopping for his clothes... haha... in the end he got a colourful striped shirt... which looks nice on him, and definetly better den tt blue polo t... hahha... but duno he okie wif it anot... coz he's so no confident in himself 1...
Haijiao came later den we proceeded to DBL O liao.... over there.... we waited for 1 more psn b4 we went in... wenqi! oooh..... haha... super 给面子coz she juz ended her wrk at IT fair... den tml 11am still got wrk, but she came:p hahhaha... so who's 面子 is she giving???:p
Anyway it's abit of fun lah... coz wif those crazy wushu ppl around sure fun de mah... haha, but i still dun really like clubbing... and if for the next time i club... i think i really will order coke lioa...
Saw yewtong there... so qiao... it's his bday!... den oso jerry loi and ming guang... so surprised to see them... i expect myself to see pc instead loh... but i think he wun come DBL O 1 lah... so not shiok the place...
Den started drinking and dancing around... qinhao came back frm the dancefloor and we gave him lots of drinks liao... but den all is those barcardi... no kick 1... den his friends gave him duno wat... he took 1 mouth den he started vomitting liao... den that area immediately evacuated.... lol~
okie lah, he's not drunk... juz drank too much, den 反胃 loh... after he vomit liao den i oso not drinking liao... coz tt same feeling is coming to me liao... haha... den haijiao oso started her usual tearing le:p... after awhile she oso cannot stand properly liao... and my wana-vomit feeling got stronger... so went to the toilet... vomit once... came out, den jiao oso vomitted... bleah.......
hm... can say we mah bok liao... but actually we still sober leh... duno wat to say... haha... but at the moment i not drunk yet... it's till the later part where i vomitted the 2nd time den i abit seh liao... coz very xin ku...:(
Only 1 tequilla, 1 barcadi and some mixers i cannot make it liao... lol~ really cant drink anymore, coz i noe will vomit even more... but den jiao vomit 2nd time liao she still keep drinking... i think she tt time she confirm more drunk den me... hm... does that sounds like huiying andyisi? haha juz drink only...
Den huiying called talked for awhile b4 i felt really bth to stay in the place, coz of the smoke and etc... so went out... and i found a couch to lie on... den like tt i lie there all the way till they come out liao... vomitted once more... lol~ tis time nthing to come out liao, so bubbles came out... lol~
wah... cannot make it... they laughed at me... but im okie lah... coz i seriously cannot make it mah... so pls pls pls... next time i wedding ah... (provided if i got...) dun try to 灌醉me okie? coz it's 100% garanttee that you'll win... den i'll be a laughing stock, den my wife oso 不好下台...
We nvr leave immediately... coz weibin made his recruit drunk! (his recruit came and joined him) den this zi xiang actually went missing!... spent quite sometime b4 finding him in the toilet slping, at the 2nd try... finally going homeeeeeeeee... ive been waiting for tt very long liao...
Den jul not going home!! she going leslie's house... wah... i wana take cab... every step i move im thinking abot cab... loL~ coz seriously im juz thinking of a hot bath and my bed... but den jul keep telling me to take bus, coz cheaper... she's rite too... so i found a plastic bag and bring wif me...:p
waited for the bus till quite long tt they finally wana take cab... but den my bus came instead :( boarded the bus... but i cant slp!!! long journey home.... and have to keep pschoing myself... no vomitting no vomitting... lol~ den when i alight, i can feel the 'drunkness' in me... almost RAN home... lol~... slp quickly after wash up...
Biangz... next clubbing i really dun wana drink le...:p
11th Mar ~ Boiling my Blood
Wake up only den my sis caused me to boil my blood.... ARGHZ... Freak wana give her 1 tight slap on her face... summore juz recovered from the uncomfort den she wants to make me slap her liao...
Woke up, the chinchilla owner will be delivering the chins today... so i came out of my room, seeing the living room quite messy, filled wif my sis's stuffs... i told her to pack abit, keep inside the room... the she replied okie...
I continued wif brushing my teeth, wash up, prepared my breakfast etc... she still haven keep!... i say the psn coming soon le... den she still dun wana move, coz she only wana watch tv, lying on that couch like 1 fat pig who only noes how to eat... u practically can see her growing fat everyday-_-"
Blood boil... watch tv den advertisement all this watch together lah??? ask her to keep her stuff like take 10 yrs, den she shout back at me saying that she only say she will keep le mah... yah... will keep... so how long later? 10yrs? 20yrs?????!!!! shit her lah...
Den even makes me boils more blood, she say i everyday only noe how to beat her and scold her.... tis really pissed me off... yah! so u wan me every mrning give u 1 tight slap to wake u up??? everytime u comes home i give u another 1 on the other side of the face???? i call that beating you everyday!... F***...
Helped her packed her place tidy, NOT EVEN a thanks okie!... and finally i grabbed her up b4 she go keep her stuff... how? she juz grab her stuffs and throw into her room... F***... show attitude liao loh!... den wallet etc? oso throw... next time u guys come my house wana throw rubbish, but cant find bins, can juz throw into her room... juz 1 F****** garbage dump mah!...
Show even more attitude, she switched off the tv and went to her room... now she's on the phone... 150% now she's complaining to her friends liao... i oso dun give it a damn... always call her friends to come use the computer and den? make my room messy and yet duno how to tidy them up!.... best her friends all scared of me den dun come... arghzzzzzzzzz
Stomach dun feel well frm ystrday's drink... now still feeling abit nauseous... coz someone irritated me so badly... :(
Can someone teach my sis?????!!!! Sec 4 liao leh!!!!! 16yrs old le lah!!!!.... still duno how to think.... it's on tis topic again:( haix....
That day mum was reading news that aggregate lower den 20 for O lvl cant enter poly!.... yah... told her i noe long ago liao... coz alot of JC students spoil market mah.... lol~ im one of them:p hahhaha... but it's like tt de... JC super no confident to pass... even pass later the aggregate not gd enuff oso cant fight with others to get into uni, so i rather take diploma, higher lvl cert, nvr further studies oso nvm, at least ur cert is higher, oso got better pay...
My sis??? i think she can go ITE i already xie tian xie di liao.... if cannot, maybe i really will throw her into army.... let the ppl in there teach her wat's discipline...
Freak sianz... everytime talk abot her my blood pressure rise super high... think it will be soon where my parents wun be able to take it...
*** Vomits... im a poor drinker...:(
...it's autumn time, 10:06 AM
Saturday, March 10, 2007
There's something abot being single... it's that you always have to fight against the same enemy... days after days, weeks after weeks... and maybe some off days in btwn where you wun be fighting... it's known as emptiness...Today... this arch enemy of mine came up to find me again... today is my off day... i shd be relaxing, doing something, writing up resume, finding jobs... but in the end? i woke up, finding myself... 'eh... wat shd i do?'...-_-" seriously, i noe i got alot of stuffs to do... but i juz dun feel like doing... juz procrastinating...
I woke up, looked at my room, den i decide to tidy up my room. I left my room, looked at the living room, den i packed up the whole place. Den i turned back to my room, i saw my sis's room, i entered, and pack her room... Came out, saw my parent's room... den i oso packed theirs...-_- wth!! my off day i packing the whole day-_-" now juz left wif storeroom and kitchen nvr pack only loh!... anyway... still finding myself stoning... feel so empty and nthing to do... oso duno how to occupy myself... feel like playing mahjong... but nvr ask them... coz think not enuff ppl... den i watched vcd...
In the end gary asked to play mahjong... haha, was happy at 1st, coz really abit gian... another fun chatting and laming session:)
Found myself walking in the house aimlessly... like tt pass half an hr-_-" that's very lame! Mental state: Walking Zombie...
After that go wushu... haix... really getting very sianz le lah!... was surprised that so many alumnis came today... think today 最大的成就 is to go running liao... even run i oso can only run 4 rounds... den i shag le-_-" that shows how weak i am now... den continue training... with my leg having the abrasion, im juz handicapped by alot of stuffs...
Breaktime, and my blood boiled awhile...:( i was talking to gary, den wana find a place for me to rest my butt on, so i juz cover back xian's bag... den she accused me of moving her bag in the 'WTH' tone... everytime she tired or feeling sick den will like tt de... so i oso gave up... juz shut my ass up... dun disturb her okie le... den janice come chap ji kah like tt... oso the 'WTH' tone... den i was arghz... blood boil... biangz... feeling shit! ~irritated...
Blah... after that was planning to go mahjong anot... but den fang dun wana go, coz she nvr bathe, den smell like salted fish... so... nvr play... haix... abit 扫兴... den go home duno do wat again... freaking sianz...
Nowadays it's like so hard to find friends come out le... den come out liao, oso feel like sian sian like tt:( i think to make matter worse... ive been disturbing alot of ppl lately... loL~ namely wenqi, jesslyn, yisi, and worst-hit would be huiying lioa... haix... duno why oso... juz seems to add on abit of entertainment like tt... summore not i purposely 1 loh... it's juz coincidential that things happens... and they happened to be the one...:p haha... muz stop for huiying's 1 liao... dun think she'll take any more of those 'jokes' le... coz starting to ignore me liao:p
On the way home... den i felt this fighting wif emptiness thing... tt's why now im blogging... hm... did i nvr blog for quite long lioa??? actually i got alot of things to blog de... alot of back dating entries... but im procrastinating, yet again... haix...
Haix... ORD-ing soon le, yet i dun feel really happy or excited abot it leh... actually, same feeling when im enlisted.. nthing special, juz a part and parcel of life thingie... as ORD date draws nearer, the more i feel like signing on... coz already used to the 'wu zho, bo zho, tan zhap ho'(got do wrk, nvr do wrk, wait for 10th every mth) that feeling liao...
That's part of the reason why im going to extend my ORD date... den can get 2 more week of pay... haha... but that's yet to confirm... another reason? coz can go taiwan... biangz... NS life nvr go overseas b4 leh... abit boh hua like tt... lol~...
This noon, staying at home juz isnt feeling very good... sometimes, when you're all alone at home.. it feels so quiet, so lonely, so... still... den staying in it every moment is a kind of suffering like that... no matter how cosy my room might be... no matter how nice my room or entertainments i have... it juz cant be compared with having someone beside you...
When i reach home... i saw bags of rubbish by the door... was quite happy... coz when i packed my sis's room, i duno wat can be thrown and wat to be kept, so i categorized them... let my sis do the wrk... den i go her room... i was very well-impressed... super neat:p hahha... my wrk:) felt satisfied... mum oso shocked when she see her living room so neat... ahhahhah... at least did something for her today... maybe tml pack the storeroom... oso muz prepare some space to keep my ORD stuffs...
My dad is slping in da living room now... i wondered what happened to them again... but guess it's okie ba... 夫妻吵架乃是平常事，无须大惊小怪。床头吵，床尾和。
Talking abot partners... recently ive keep saying and mentioning abot 3 yrs later 3 yrs later... indeed... wat am i waiting for? will it happen 3 yrs later?... lol~... it's like always by the side of my mouth whenever i speak, i'll talk abot 3 yrs later... 3 yrs later get married, den will shotgun, if no gf, den i'll find haijiao etc... loL~ it's all crap lah i noe... but seriously... i think my mental state isnt really good for now...
And, NOBODY BELIEVES ME!!! that it's no more wif huiying and stuff like tt... indeed i admit that i have liking in her, but it's not to the state whereby it's deep enuff lah... so i can say stop den stop de... summore she dun reciprocate, that also prevents me to falling deeper too... plus all other factors... the result = IMPOSSIBLE, so dun think too much:) actually it's a good thing... liking someone from the same club spells trouble... at least for me it's true... 2x, and the same thing happens-_- or maybe it's me that's the trouble really... yah... oso to say, yah... the liking towards janice i think it finally died down... but i duno why im still paying attention to her somehow... tt's very wrong... and she's actually getting on my nerves!... duno why... but nvm, it wun affect me too much i guess... think the emptiness thingie will affect me more...
Okie... so if anyone asks me who do i like rite now? i would seriously tell you... it's no one... or maybe got, but it's only like... nthing further...:p (tzeweng turning on the flirt button for the 1st time) yah... but i think i dun have the quality to flirt around either... lol~
So. i'll be waiting for 3 yrs later.... someone who's a virgo.... someone who's surname is Tan... someone who's name inside got Xin or Xing? lol~... that's purely coincidential i guess....
Freak sian tonite... tml? tml going qinhao's party bash @ DBL-O... i duno it'll be fun anot... but i simply know that i'll be getting headaches... coz confirm will drink de, haha... muz give bday boy face:p
Heng... today is 10th... and that means that the HIGH EXPENSE mth arrived... my chinchilla is coming this sunday... that means that there's some stuffs that i need to buy for them... but if can, i'll try to drag till next mth... except food etc...
Den there's Rane's 21st bday @ cineleisure kbox... both gary and weibin cant make it for the occasion... hm... though i would be going, but i guess i wun stay long ba... since im quite the odd 1 out:p.... her gift? freaking ex... hahha... it's Hello Kitty Mahjong set, costing near $200... but since but since is i ask her 1, den i'll try to think a way ba...
After that would be xian's bday following huiying's... haven thot of wat to give yet... but agar agar le lah... see how loh... muz see how much im going to left with... still got the ORD dinner... $80... wah... this mth are they giving me my marksmanship pay anot????
Summore ive juz helped Sum payed for a shipment-_-' $67.95 USD sia... i wonder got enuff for them to deduct anot:( coz he dun have debit card... hm... he better be grateful sia... freak poor next mth...:( whenever i felt poor... i would think... biangz... my bday shd i spend so much? lol~ shd:p coz only 1 time:p hahhaha... 3 yrs later muz come for my wedding dinner!!! lol!~
* shocked to see how much i blogged:p loL~ gdgd... coz i blogs lesser now le mah... anyway, back date entry tml, hopefully...
...it's autumn time, 12:38 AM
Thursday, March 01, 2007
hm... i haven blog for qutie some time liao... did i?...still haven moved on to the new blog... it juz seems tt everything i wana do is being pushed back... and im juz procrastinating...
Mon by right we shd be briefing the new snipers stuffs to prepare but in the end we did nthing, coz our ps dun allow us to have contact wif them tt day... so took off from pc... went to sch looked for my lecturer instead...
after talking to her, it's a totally different feeling when i talk to menglai(another lecturer)... kind of feeling demoralised... it juz seems that it wun be as easy as i thot... both searching for job, and wrking.
anyway she'll be taking a lookout for me, while i search online and newspaper for the job i want...
after that went to join weijie, zihui and jason to watch protege at Lido... nice movie! and i like zhang jing chu:p hahahha... pretty gals, of coz like:p i like tt kid too... very cute:p
after that went back to wushu... damn sian... super sianz... arghz... duno why... no... i noe why... it's juz like returning back to last time... whereby i everytime go wushu is for the sake of going... everytime i go is juz hoping to see some friends... juz hoping that even i see her she wun affect me either...
but i juz got a feeling that everytime when she's looking at me, im not looking at her, and when i looking at her, she dun wana look at me... okay, seriously, tt's juz some hallucination... dun even think she's going to come near me... neither do i...
broke my new year rule tt day... i sighed alot... bleah... really cannot make myself happy... arghz... even during lao yu sheng... no interest in participating at all...
den kimyong wana talk to me... wah... i noe wat he's going to ask liao... suddenly wana talk to me... i oso feel very guai guai de... told him now come wushu very sianz... partly coz of her... dun feel like training like tt... den he say wah lau, how can like tt? am i going to perform anot etc?... yah... after he says out... den i remember, yupz, im going for the performance, to help him out... so okie, i'll train to help him ya:) but dun think can pick up the morale any time soon...
den he say, new year1s coming in liao... den i can 'aim' them... lol~ still aim them ah? dun wan lah... later same thing happen again, den i really cannot survive in wushu liao lah... got enuff prob liao... still wana add on to prob meh???...
think it'll be soon where i'll stop going wushu liao?... i think once jul jiao leslie not going wushu le... i think i oso wun go anymore le... now i noe why other alumnis like not enthu to come back and train... coz they simply got no links and ties or bonds to let them feel like coming back...
booked in that nite after the yu sheng... waited at the bus stop... den juz keeping sighing all the way till the bus came-_-" sad day
It's confirmed that i cant go diving already... even more saded... at 1st im so enthu sia... juz finding ppl to go... slowly it evolved to ns friend cannot go, but wushu friends can go... den to only jul leslie and me... den now?... i juz found out that i dun have enuff savings to go-_-" got is got, but after go liao come back den $0 left... wat worries more is that wat if, *touch wood, i cant get a job? den i survive on wat? dun wish to take $$ frm parents le leh... den even if i found job, i eat and my transport pay by who? yah?... haha... so sianded... muz hen xin and say, i cannot go:(
ystrday was wed, went to ECP for battalion cohesion... alighted at tanah merah and i skate all the way to ECP liao... freak... i thot there's no way i could have fall today... but it actually is my worst fall ever since i skate-_-" both knee cap gone... lol~ not as in break or wat lah... juz abrasion, to patch on my knee-_-" painnnnnn when i bath.. arghz...
fastest cohesion ever, the event ends immediately after prize presentation, and the ppl took less den a min to get out of the place...-_-" haha... think i was faster:p coz i took desmond's car:p
haix...boring entry... oso duno wat i can blog nowadays liao... tml is theory test, today gonna revise... duno can make it anot... hopefully can:p dun wana re test at all:p
...it's autumn time, 7:51 AM