Everyday is a sunny day!

These few days, ive been staying over in school, doing stuffs for the camp overnite.

Im glad that i do have help from people, but at the same time making me ponder, where is my main comm people? am i too forgiving for them to have their excuse and not to come? But at the same time, putting myself in their shoes, i'll hope to have the same reply tt im giving to them as well...

Juz very glad that im still getting help from people, and not doing stuffs myself.

Sometimes, being kind and forgiving, might juz be a demerit rather den merit. but there'll always be people to help me still. I shall be harsher as days draws nearer and the camp shall be a success, even till now where probs keep arising. With the people im having now, it is still a big headache. but still... yes, things will still be going on as planned, the camp is still going to be a success... i shall not fail those who had confidence in me=)

With all the probs coming in few at a day, i heard a demoralising news, she's not going to wushu anymore. Which shocked me... though i acted not. I know that wushu is her interest. She has been going there to train though her parents disallowed and complained. She had tried her best in a post she's not confident in. Im sure she has suffered a little, but still i thot she was stronger than she thot to be.

I duno wat's the situation, wat's the criticism. but to the extend of her not going wushu anymore... i think, it's serious enough for her. What's is his guy doing? i duno he got support her or not... but that's not the main qn... i know alot of fact btwn me and her, and ive already accepted it quite some time already... but there's still times, where i'll still feel hurt for her.

Hope that what she's going through now will be over soon.

...it's autumn time, 5:54 PM

Long time since you see some pics... or rather... VIDEO! on my entry....

This shd be done years ago lah! but wth, ENJOY!

...it's autumn time, 5:19 PM

ever wondered how small can a baby crayfish be?

omg... it's so small tt my cam cant capture it! look at ur 5cent coin... it's only 1/8 the size of it!

imagine in another few mths time, it'll grow up to a $5 note size....

crazy shit...

...it's autumn time, 5:08 AM

it's a small small world....

well... earth is simply too small... or maybe singapore...

kkx... so my sis is playing for this basketball team, which xinni have her juniors there as well...

...it's autumn time, 12:11 AM

Yesterday was a very weird day...

Morning, was a shoot at 3rd avenue, surprisingly, i had someone to chat with in the morning to keep me awake.

The house was awesome big!!!! and when i saw the bride, a familiar feeling came in... i wonder who she was until the evening.

She resembles Amanda! lol...

The groom is another big mix up as well=p the groom and the brother looks so much alike tt halfway through the shoot, i wonder did i get the wrong fella=p lol

Da sisters... her voice familiar, and she looked at me as if she knew me... hm... i wonder why... also during evening den i realise... i think she's the jiemei of another couple, who actually appeared as guests tt evening. oooh.. cool.. maybe tt's why we're actually being engaged for the shoot.

Zen... now i realise how girl this name can be. lol... coz the wedding coordinator is also called Zen!=p

Another jiemei of the bride, even more familiar in feeling... but i totally cant recognise who is she... got abit of feeling of a primary sch mate, abit of Jane chang feeling... duno... juz find tt she's familiar.

Saw SP's principal, den triggers me to wonder... is the bride's parent sch's director? for a moment i thot the father was my internship teacher... but den i realise the surname tay wasnt my teacher's surname.

Duno... the nite was really alot of familiar feeling that all i duno who or wat is it actually.

Sam also gave me 1 of his wireless mouse today which made me owning my 1st mac mouse which i intend to have since long ago...

overall... everything was so perfect... i got good looking groom, pretty bride, big atas houses, great hotel, nice gowns... but yet, im not satisfied with my shoot... coz i think... with such great factors... i wasnt able to perform well. my steadicam wasnt even balancing! actually, lots of mistakes tt day, which i think it's not great at all...

but well, with this experience, i believe for the next couple im getting, i'll be able to perform a better job, and creating what is a style of Zen=p

...it's autumn time, 4:43 PM

if only love can be as simple and as sweet as we first met...

okie...-_-" emo...

after all the effort ive spent in the camp... and now attending wushu camp, seeing her is really bringing everything back... im still not able to cross my own stage...

The other day, after our workshop, me, geck, xinni and daniel went for a movie... after whcih daniel went home while the rest of us went to starbucks and chill... i ordered java chip... for a reason i realised later... i loved the stuffs that my loved one loves.

We were talking about Xmen origin, should wolverine lose his memory, a personal question... after which... the 3 of us has chose not to lose. even though the memory might hurt, even though it will bring pain through your living life. but it's the only memory that belongs to you. Something that has happened real. Something dear. Something treasured.

Many a times i wished that it would be gone, so i wun have any more sorrows... but many a times i noe... i dun wish to let go...

Find another pls!... a phrase heard too many a time... yet always easier said den done.

Hope my friend there who is suffering somehow the same prob as me, to straighten out her thots earlier den i am...

i think this year... my blog is all abot how tired i am... yes... once again im tired. especially with the camp...

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...it's autumn time, 6:57 AM

Taking a short break to upload this...

That time when i went malacca for my grandma's bday

The gigantic house that i stayed in, my dua yi's place

It's a 2 story bungalow, with a garden at the side

a small table under the shelter, for a fresh breathe of air in the moist garden.

our breakfast by the garden

The feeling of old european life juz came into my mind

The high ceiling of the house

Realised that all the photos are portraits? so that i can take in the height as well=p

The dining hall, where we took a sip of authentic chinese tea

My yi zhang is a tea lover,

with more den 200 over pieces of tea set (sadded, nvr really take photos of the 2nd floor)

and parts of them are antiques... the overall value?

im not surprise to be over a million since 1 of his jap tea set can cost 20k already.

Enjoy a moment of serenity

One of my favourite display in the house

Gary, samantha, weibin, all the liquor ghost, you'll love this rack

During my grandma's bday

I felt very far from her that day... she actually couldnt recognise me when she first saw me.. maybe it's my hairstyle...

But more likely, im drifted from her already... if only im able to converse in teochew, i think it would be much better

Lots of conversation that day, coz ive gotta go around meeting my relatives, coz they have 10 over years never saw me?

and yeah... gotta go around talking, also with their children, socialising. while my sis juz sat there-_-"

coz i think she cant recognise anyone. lol...

my breakfast the next day... guess wat?

the only shot tt i made that day.

...it's autumn time, 3:18 AM

Okie... now... does any guys bitch about stuffs like me? well? i dun care! coz im really gonna bitch on this...

If you're an organiser... could you even organise and event without even meeting you committee at all? I cant believe that few more days to the dry run, 1 mth to the actual camp, he nvr ever meet up with his committee at all!

If you have organised any event b4... is it possible to have the organiser not meeting the committee up and have the event with all the small programme going on? Maybe it's possible... but definitely not in this case. Where the event is so much bigger than i thought. Im not able to meet him, i have to change my schedule DAMN free to meet his, i need to adjust to his and now im remedying all the stuffs that his not-meeting-his-committee has resulted.

Im now totally, as in TOTALLY hand tight already. Everyday wake up do FOC, go sch FOC, come back home after dinner FOC, slp 3 hrs FOC, meet ppl at weird hours for FOC...

Im not asking anyone to appreciate wat ive done and the hrs ive committed into this... coz afterall, i cant deny the fact that if anything goes wrong, i as a chairperson, have the responsibility in it. I just wish that the others would realise that it's a fact that there's alot of miscommunications, responsibility not met, disappointments here and there... and actually start thinking of the event's success as their prior and work with me.

I cant say the amount of ppl im disappointed in for the whole organising. Coz i expected, yet i cant prevent it from happening. Tried my best but now... it already happened. Im taking extreme measures, gonna make everyone unhappy for all the changes but like wat people say, if you need to do it, do it. Well, im putting everyone's reputation at stake now. Whether it's gonna be a gd camp or not is not dependant on me but literally everyone.

Just hope that im still receiving my support and really ppl to be behind me to support me frm falling. Just too much stuffs and disappointments to receive in 1 camp. After this, u'll expect me to not join any of such again. At most, we'll be doing wat we're interested in, the films...

kkx... back to work...

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...it's autumn time, 2:28 AM

So basic steadicam course is finally over. I missed the last day of the course coz of a wedding shoot. damn! heard tt it's damn fun lah! running with steadicam, outdoor shoot. A.R.G.H.Z. whyyyyyyyyyyyy did i miss it?=(

But anyway, i think ive got to. earned extra cash in order to meet my driving lessons coming up.

The workshop really fun, though it is as hard also. Didnt took photos of myself during the course, but den, alot of others. really fun=p got to noe some new friends, and we watched quite a few movies. That is really good. At least, all my stress tt has been building up from foc is being taken away.

So the workshop finally ends, and im back into foc works. starting an operation remedy where i'll be going around and poking into everyone's business... nags, taking over, conquer... it's war!!!!! =p k lah... think i'll be hated after doing this operation... but den again... if i dun, it'll be my failure liao=p cant believe ystrday i wrked till 6am... and when i woke up today. ive gotta settle with tonnes of stuffs again and was talking to 5psn at the same time abot foc... a.r.g.h.z. enuff of it=p i wana go tour after foc!=p

oh yah... ive juz had my hair cut. change style. another shock for me=p but den again... after the 1st try, nthing is as shocking lioa... only took a day for me to get used to it...=p

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...it's autumn time, 4:39 PM

Seems like some people have problem of opening their mouth in asking permission... nono... in this case... she have the problem of even juz merely sending an sms will do....

If you dun play by my rule den get off... u intrude my space, use my stuff. i gave u the permission and u take it for granted. took my stuffs without putting back. came into my room without bathing. used the computer without telling me. took my console without even letting me know and suddenly like become urs? borrowed bags that will nvr be returned. HARLOW? it's my room okie?

thx for being ungrateful and 'enduring' all these. Fine. if u duno wat are priviledge, den by all remember what u say and keep to ur words.

get the hell out of my room until you know what is the courtesy to ask before using.

...it's autumn time, 10:28 PM

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